Monday, August 06, 2007 ♥
i dont asked for more. neither do i want to. i am alr quite happy with what i am even when i am single.
we talked things over gave another chance but it just seems that we've make the wrong decision. when i wna treat you nice. attitudes was all i get. hey come on , i dont own you anything or am i taking you for granted. in fact last night.
many things went through my head. && msg that i see that youre mum sent. mayb its true , my love for you i doubt right now can last till life trials. As for the future , i completely have no picture in it. :x
when you start to throw you're temper, and if you think by huggin me or the very next morning and everything would be fine than you're super wrong i not small at heart but i hold grudges ~ yes and i do. you knw i loathe the most is that when you throw temper & the very next moment as thou as nth have taken place. well, things shouldnt be like that. But after those 2yrs of being tgt. Dont tell me you dont knw what my pattern like when i ask you things. and TEMPER was all i get from you instead.
i asked myself , did i really make a mistake by saying alright to get back tgt. or am i just trying to run away that i still miss n____.
Even me myself i doubt my own feelings. Its unfair to you, what more can i do. i wanted to let myself rest for a moment. && think through if we still need each other. but you wna get back tgt. so i just follow. maybe its really me whose at fault.
For not appreciating you & instead someone else. or mayb our love that was yrs back have really drift apart. In face you do not need me too. just that because its a prolong r/s we had yrs back that why its holding you back telling you that you still 'love' me. But deep inside you no longer too. you change as well as i have to.
I really wna treat you nice & change & forget him. but forgetting him i am trying hard. half way to success.
Somehow, whenever i wna be nice to you & really be like last time, you've to spoil the whole thing & pissed me off real badly causing both of us get so angry over each other.
Time can change a person. I know most of the time is i am the one at fault. even friends also think so. fcuk it all. than mayb they are right.
its all my fault then. totally mine, happy? totally right from the start of we being tgt. every single thing that have happen is my fault. i am a bitch, flirt, hongster, cb kia, or whatever ppl say.
Not a good girlfriend, or even a good friend.
well.
mayb we really shouldnt have got back tgt. sighs.
enough of all this shit.
cousins all awake. two of them didnt attend church only my aunt went to her church && my mum tgt with sis went to theirs too.
haven had breakfast nor lunch not mood. sighs.
i only slept at this morning ard 6plus am coming to 7.
and was awake at 11plus.
gna have bad eye bags and dark eye rings.
:x hate it.
cause my face has so much pimples now. damn.
fuck it man.
sighs.
boring.
gna watch tv if can carry on with the disc.
ive tried my best in trying to give in. & tried talking to you. yet all i get back was still temper & attitude.
what more you wna ask from me. guess mayb you wna end it. since you find that theres nothing to hold onto anymore.
sighs.
really dont know what you really wna. always put on that face even when i do nth wrong you know that pulls off the triger to my anger.
i really find it laughable. that i find myself saying all this.
fcuk all those shit.
do what you want cant be bothered.
-am i that stupid, or do i look like a idoit to you.
to you i look like a fool ?
that only to be treated nice and loved by you when youre in the mood to. and to put aside and scolded when youre in a bad mood
only to treasure when i am gone. & treated like a thrash when i am with you.
sighs.
i dont know what to do or say.
your family might be totally right.
youre mum is also right.
i am not a good girlfriend.
a bad one instead.
but seriously i dont really care.
accept of who i am. if not .
than thats too bad.
i do not need another person in my life to survive!
Yvonne ♥
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YVONNE
That's what everyone calls & when June7th falls
That's when I'll get older too:D
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I'll be leading a life that I want it to be
& I'll be looking things in other perspectives not too much of the negatives.
Living life stronger everyday.
I guess I've been pretty well grown up.
Learned pretty much in life
All the rights and wrongs
After all the pains that I've went through or perhaps given by others.
Its high time I'd have to be independent.
Basically, I'm sociable and of course friendly.
But do at times, I might be a little way off too crazy.
and I'm a little temperamental but I guess my endurance are kinda of high.
So I wouldn't blow my top easily(:
Big THANKS to those who have always been there for me
I can't be more than content to have all the loved ones around me
& I would want you guys know
I LOVE YOU ALL.
Thank you will never be enough for those who have been there whenever I needed your to be
Gonna be a big girl now and have to stop relying so so much on others
There's still much more to go through.
& as for the rest.
Find it out yourself(:
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