Saturday, September 08, 2007 ♥
♥ 6:09 AM
i feel like crying out loud. ): screaming my lungs out ):Many things are all beyond our control. I know i am selfish & also un-appreciative. I know i am always the one in the wrong and th one that bad. Its all my fault. I really cant take it anymore. I really rather we were friends.说好不流泪,说好不分开. 但最后我还是选择了离开.In the very end , after so many yrs. Mayb leaving would still be my last decision. Is not because i don love you anymore. But somehow i find that we're better off than friends. I am really trying hard to hold on. i really did try putting in effort its really.usless totally useless hopeless. shitless. whatever lers la.cbMayb it true. time would prove it all.& i hope we will work it out too.Maybe i am being too paranoid. But one thing i know. and i totally agree to those who says too.I always seems to be the happy girl that everyone knws . the lil cheerful girl that always smile. noisy and irritating. always talking.but i am really not happy. i have my own soft side. when i am home. i am a cry baby. fcuk it la.my tears just shed easily.I dont know how to cherish. i only learn through lesson when ive lost. ):pain to me is already numbness. whenever i tried being nice or concern to friends all i get was all shit back.i am not pin-pointing. but really .how many can be TRue.Humans changes i understand. everyone changes. i really dont know what to do la. so fucking hell frustrated. damn!
i agree to those that say or think too . cause even myself think like this.
i am not a good Girlfriend. B
ut ill not leave you during your toughest time. ill still be there as a friend if that really happens. Couples that break up i really believe that friends can still be continued.(:
Dislike LOVE & Being LOVED.
How many can really be TRUE?