Monday, November 05, 2007 ♥
I've to learn to be independent from now on~ -Post will be a lil longer .
so yes. somehow me and him stop for a moment. cos its no pint dragging onto something that we doesnt een really care.
both of us are so busy in a sense that we've neglected each other and not realising it till now after for so fcuking long.
yes , its a long r/s . but not just because of that. than i wna hold onto it. sighs
his parents yet to knw
and now i am over at his place. feel kinda of awkward also. :x
so stayed over from ytd till now. and my eldest aunt condition i am not too sure about it yet. but am still worried.
having a lil flu right now. hate it whenever i have block nose . damn
using jervon's bro's lappy to blog. ahahh.
played majong just now luhs. fun but also boring.
ahh.
so moodless.
gna slp soon.
and meet up bestie tml to like go bugis to buy my skinny . :D
hopefuly can buy until luhs. if not i sure fcuk sad. damn
sigh.
gna waste money again. no choice bo clothes. hopefully can get one top too.
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hope auntie is fine.
and everything go well.
and flu kindly go away. :D
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Even thou now we're no longer couples. and i believe that youre also prepared this time round. maybe yes thou its my assuming . but i am sure that it doesnt hurt as much as in the past .
i knw i might be silly and will regret to make such decision but i dont wna torture myself by always repeating the same old thing.
Every humans get tired of the same old thing when only one party is giving in always. it takes two hands to clap.
throughout this 3yrs. we both have our own freedom mayb i do have more. and also your not like some other guys who control their gf til fcking strict. and mayb thats also the reason why i lead astray .
i admit most of the time it all my fault.
and i am truely sorry .
we both have wonderful times. and also dont bad.
but we went thr it all , and finally both side parents do agree. In the very end.
It was both of us that couldnt hold on . Or mayb the problem just lies with me.
for the entire week. when ure off to work .
No msg-es or call-ing from you . or maybe its because youre busy . or mayb its because i didnt took the intiative to do so.
& when was the last time you really did cuddle me and kissed me .
But it did hurt me it really did. i really felt so neglected even thou i am with my friends .
but i really LOVE you all this while . and everything that happen its just because i am too playful , and mayb you never control me enough
thus everything turn out like this.
I hold back my tears. this time round, cause i have to learn to be independent. and not relying on someone forever.
which no one can ever do that its really silly .
i have alr be with you for the entire 3yrs coming 4 very soon . and i am so used to you by my side. Even when i slp , you will be beside me.
all those times. we used to joke. counting sheep and nonsense . playing . and dozing off. sighs. i really miss it.
I do not knw if i would really regret if ever a day or mayb soon . after not being tgt anymore you have another gf. thou you say you'll wait.
My friends they say youre always not the same as others. Yeah its true at some parts youre realy different and nice . but i dont knw how to appreciate and i really think i dont deserve you .
Like how i always view, meant to be it will be . if its does not belong to you , no matter how you wna hold onto it . it will still slip off.
I believe in fate. & i also thank god if he's the one who brought you to me. taking care of me when i was sick and being togt for 3yrs and enduring all my stupid nonsense and temper. which i think others will not be able to take it .
but all this while you just put up with me . but i did change on my side to be a better gf . but as for you . i find that you've change to someone else. thats just what i feel .
youre just lying behind me. and i dont knw how to face you .
i dont knw if you sad , or youre not able to let go . but you seems to be perfectly alright . not being affected.
i told you before i wil not leave you in the lurch . cause now youre supporting youreself.
Leaving you now is not because of this , is because i find that our r/s is not longer a r/s but just a daily routine.
i really dont wna leave this r/s . but it seems just so dull.
& everything just so changes just so much.
You'll only really come to realise when i say 'let put a break' and you'll start saying you'll change for the better .
Youre alr very good its just that i need more concern . ):
We have alr make a agreement before we were tgt. if ever a day we were to part . we'll still be good friends.
i dont wna lose a r/s and lost a friend mayb we both need to think thr if there's a need for us to have each other or mayb it alright even without.
Jervon thanks for everything you've done for me, every single to the tinest thingy you ever did. it wil always be my memorie
hopfully this time round we mean what we say . and if we does get back tgt.
i hope we'll really treasure and not just treat it as the same as now .
Then it will be totally useless .
Thanks for everything . really , every single lil things. & if you were to hate me , i wouldnt blame you . &
I'm sorry for not being a good gf.
IF you were to realise , we started drifting apart ever since you went in to ITE. & the changes took place just too quickly for me to adapt to it.
i'll not cry this time round. and i knw i'll miss you . but we've to move on and carry one with life. i knw i will regret if i were to lost you this time round. but i dont wna shed anymore tears. it no point.
But i never regretted being with you all this while.
Youre alone 18 mayb be with someone else . and you'll see the difference. mayb another person would treat and love and appreciate you better.
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Aites ppl .
enough of the long post .
gta go slp now .
jervon wna use the lappy t play game.
and i am so gna shed tears now .
fcuk .
which i dont wna .
so il just try to toss and turn and fall asleep
going shopping tml with besite and jervon. :D
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After all the pains that I've went through or perhaps given by others.
Its high time I'd have to be independent.
Basically, I'm sociable and of course friendly.
But do at times, I might be a little way off too crazy.
and I'm a little temperamental but I guess my endurance are kinda of high.
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Gonna be a big girl now and have to stop relying so so much on others
There's still much more to go through.
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