Friday, January 11, 2008 ♥
I've learn whats real pain really is.
MC end today (: Been drinking load & laods of plain water .
HOHO & tml i've to work (:
Cough is still as bad luhs , & my flu is doing me in .
:x
Been really really long since i fall sick so badly & so long .
sighs):
Hopefully i recover soon . Cause i don't wanna be sick .
fevering a lil . sighs .
Jervon have been taking care of me this few days. (: THANKS SO MUCH!!!!!
:D
i miss darren .
argh .
OH YAHS.
been a long while since i wrote long long stuff.
haha
so here is ;
Something i came up with (:
Not really nice . so yah.
just my heartfelt feelings :D
DIDN'T phrase it well , so it will sound a lil weird.
Don't mind hurs.
:D
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♥-Things were not suppose to be taken for granted.
But no one understand it & only learn regrets after the love ones have leave.
-I believe,
there's no need for so much to say .
-Cause everyone just need.
or maybe deep down thats what they think ?
-All i need was just someone true,
Somone who would be there throughout like how they claimed they would be.
-& when you found someone you think they're so dear to you.
Yet they still have to turn they back & walked away .
-& when you really felt like talking to someone,
wanting someone to be there for you?
-You wasn't there,
for me to have a shoulder to lean onto , a listening ear to listen to what i wanna say.
-Memories were meant to be sweet,
Meant to be a happy one.
-But whenever , i come to think of it,
The memories that belongs to you and me .
-I'll just start to tear.
♥-Its true , you've take you're leave ,
yet i'm always looking back at the time you took you're leave & think you'll return back someday.
-How foolish thinking i know.
Silly to think this way , cos you've walked to far away.
-Many times i asked myself why?
Why do i still miss you.
-Then , i remember ,
the day we've got tgt.
-You said you would take care of me forever.
I don't need forever.
-Just as long as possible.
but good things they doesnt last
like what you always say.
With you hands in hands with me i think i'll be able to walk through all those shits.
♥-A fact its hard to accept,
To find someone whom you love & love you back the same its hard.
-I'm not gonna asked for eternity , not gonna asked for everlasting.
Not to say not even asking for forever.
-Just want someone who appreciates
& love me with all their heart as well as i do.
-But now , i can't bring myself to forget.
All that we had .
-I can't start anew ,
With just someone who claims they love me like you do.
-Cause my heart just belongs to you,
& right now , no one can replace this place that stands deep down .
-The thought of you makes me cry ,
But eventually i'll miss you more.
-I told myself , i should leave you behind ,
& carry on with my cheerful life.
-Cause i never felt this way,
this is the first time i finding myself going all through & its kinda of weird.
♥-Its bleeding deep down profusely,
& the pain tat you leave behind i doubt it can be explain.
-I told myself , it high time to forget about you,
Cause the outcome would be the same no matter how long the wait is gonna last.
-The pain its still lingers around,
& i still ponder.
-But i'm no longer holding hopes up high,
I don't wna fall back hard again.
-I wanna close my eyes ,
& leave them as what they are.
-I don't have the strength to love again ,
I don't wanna feel the hurt all over again .
-It really really pains.
I don't know how to pick myself up and face.
♥-I was never able to catch up with you.
Cause you never let be able to walk by you're side.
-Maybe right from the start,
it was a mistake.
-But there ain't no regrets.
(:
but instead i'm glad.
♥-thou its true , its goodbye this time round.
thou we've bid goodbye.
-I can't control myself .
but cry.
-I want you to turn back ,
& i hoping that someday you would really will.
-Its just some beautiful illusion or imaginations that i'm having.
cause the fact is you've left & will never ever return.
-I'll tell myself everyday .
that there's need for me to put you down & treat you just like a normal friend.
-Cause we'll never be the same again.
Right now.
♥-Just wanna find a place,
I can find myself back once again.
-I've to learn to love myself more,
then i'll have the strength to love others & forget all about you.
-I've to be fair.
I would go & learn.
-I'll learn to cherish , i'll learn to treasure.
& all the memories YOU & ME created.
-I'll safekeep it deep down in a place in my heart.
& no one would ever replace that place.
This i promise you.
---♥---iMISSyouKAI---♥---
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.
.
.
To YOU;
-I'm truely sorry .
I feel so indebted to you.
-Maybe i'm really really used to you.
I know you still love me so .
-But i don't wanna be unfair.
I wanna love you wholeheartly just you in me.
-I don't wanna go breaking you're heart over & over again.
I know boy , it hurts you thoroughly.
-I'm really sorry.
I know , SORRY aint gonna help much in the hurt i cause onto you.
-I admit , i'm really used to you by my side.
But now i can't get my feelings right .
-Don't wanna be untrue anymore.
I just wanna stick to one.
-For once & for all.
I wanna find a solution / a place where i can find my anwers.
-I wanna sort out my feelings
& know what i really want.
-Now i'm feeling so useless & uneasy when you're not home.
am i just too independent or is it true love.
am i just so use to you.
Cause i've been relying you this couple of years.
-I need some thinking through & make a decision that doesn't break you're heart.
It pains me to see you're hurting deep down too.
-SORRY my dear boy):
i really am.
-Give me time, if you still can wait.
But i wouldn't blame if you would to turn & walked away.
`thks for everything once again~
& i'm sorry too ~
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-
To darling Jazlyn girl ;
Thanks for always letting me know you're there .
Someone whom i can rely on when i feel like sharing my stuff.
& when i'm ill . msg me and asked if i'm feeling better.
Sometimes i'm really at the edge of my darkest point in life but you never failed to show that you're still around for me to be there and to hear my problems thou you have yours too.
Our friendship throughout this year ain't being a easy one .
Many things had taken place , each and everyone of us have grown up.
Time passes really fast.
& fate brought us tgt to know each other .
this i'll never regret.
i'm happy & glad fortunate that i had you as my friend.
Someone who never fail to show her care .
Thanks girl for everything.
& when i receive you're msg this morning , i was really seriously touched(:
You too take good care alright .
& know i'm always there too.
pls no more late nights & eat well & res well & early .
x33 thanks for everything~
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To dearest Bestie;
I don't know why am i writing this also .
But well bestie , its gonna be like coming 4yrs for our this friendship already .
Been really fast.
& for the couple of years , i guess we've been through quite alot.
we do have our disagreements , arguements & also our enjoyments together (:
Thou now, everything might not seems to be the same ,
but just know that in my heart you're already like a family to me.
& if theres anything .
dislikes disputes or whatever.
just come to me and say okays ?
what i mean is . if there's anything just come straight to me .
now we both seems to be so busy with our own stuff .
but know that you're always be my BESTIE no matter whats gonna take place.
thou many times when i need console you would reprimand me or maybe console me in a different way.
But not to worry i know you care, i really do.
Best friends forever right?
thats what we said(:
& i'm always there for you to be you're listening ear. :D
-
-
-
To Brothers & khakis & buddies;
Thanks for always being there for me . & this time round we did went through alot:D
Hopefully everything would still be the same for all of us now & in the future kays?
Most importantly i hope all of us would be trueful luhs?
thks for those who have always been there for me (:
letting me know i'm not alone:D
anw ,
BROTHERS & SISTER & BUDDIES & KHAKIS FOREVER!!!!!
`
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`
`
`
My 2008 Resolution ;
-Be a good girl & go work everyday .
-Be a good girlfriend to the one i'm gonna be with.
-Earn more money
-Be more skinny
-Have more friends
-No arguements & unhappy things that gonna happen
-Family & friends & those that know me to be happy & healthy(:
-More sensible
-Be a grown up as what i'm suppose to be
-Not crying so much over small things
-Carry on with the happy life
-Be a cheerful girl & happy.
-Not to be so wildful anymore.
-settle in one stuff , and tiongxim.
``when i rmber den will update:DD
waves.
gonna go off .
byes.
x33 with loves
-yvonne-
MC end today (: Been drinking load & laods of plain water .
HOHO & tml i've to work (:
Cough is still as bad luhs , & my flu is doing me in .
:x
Been really really long since i fall sick so badly & so long .
sighs):
Hopefully i recover soon . Cause i don't wanna be sick .
fevering a lil . sighs .
Jervon have been taking care of me this few days. (: THANKS SO MUCH!!!!!
:D
i miss darren .
argh .
OH YAHS.
been a long while since i wrote long long stuff.
haha
so here is ;
Something i came up with (:
Not really nice . so yah.
just my heartfelt feelings :D
DIDN'T phrase it well , so it will sound a lil weird.
Don't mind hurs.
:D
-
-
-
-
-
♥-Things were not suppose to be taken for granted.
But no one understand it & only learn regrets after the love ones have leave.
-I believe,
there's no need for so much to say .
-Cause everyone just need.
or maybe deep down thats what they think ?
-All i need was just someone true,
Somone who would be there throughout like how they claimed they would be.
-& when you found someone you think they're so dear to you.
Yet they still have to turn they back & walked away .
-& when you really felt like talking to someone,
wanting someone to be there for you?
-You wasn't there,
for me to have a shoulder to lean onto , a listening ear to listen to what i wanna say.
-Memories were meant to be sweet,
Meant to be a happy one.
-But whenever , i come to think of it,
The memories that belongs to you and me .
-I'll just start to tear.
♥-Its true , you've take you're leave ,
yet i'm always looking back at the time you took you're leave & think you'll return back someday.
-How foolish thinking i know.
Silly to think this way , cos you've walked to far away.
-Many times i asked myself why?
Why do i still miss you.
-Then , i remember ,
the day we've got tgt.
-You said you would take care of me forever.
I don't need forever.
-Just as long as possible.
but good things they doesnt last
like what you always say.
With you hands in hands with me i think i'll be able to walk through all those shits.
♥-A fact its hard to accept,
To find someone whom you love & love you back the same its hard.
-I'm not gonna asked for eternity , not gonna asked for everlasting.
Not to say not even asking for forever.
-Just want someone who appreciates
& love me with all their heart as well as i do.
-But now , i can't bring myself to forget.
All that we had .
-I can't start anew ,
With just someone who claims they love me like you do.
-Cause my heart just belongs to you,
& right now , no one can replace this place that stands deep down .
-The thought of you makes me cry ,
But eventually i'll miss you more.
-I told myself , i should leave you behind ,
& carry on with my cheerful life.
-Cause i never felt this way,
this is the first time i finding myself going all through & its kinda of weird.
♥-Its bleeding deep down profusely,
& the pain tat you leave behind i doubt it can be explain.
-I told myself , it high time to forget about you,
Cause the outcome would be the same no matter how long the wait is gonna last.
-The pain its still lingers around,
& i still ponder.
-But i'm no longer holding hopes up high,
I don't wna fall back hard again.
-I wanna close my eyes ,
& leave them as what they are.
-I don't have the strength to love again ,
I don't wanna feel the hurt all over again .
-It really really pains.
I don't know how to pick myself up and face.
♥-I was never able to catch up with you.
Cause you never let be able to walk by you're side.
-Maybe right from the start,
it was a mistake.
-But there ain't no regrets.
(:
but instead i'm glad.
♥-thou its true , its goodbye this time round.
thou we've bid goodbye.
-I can't control myself .
but cry.
-I want you to turn back ,
& i hoping that someday you would really will.
-Its just some beautiful illusion or imaginations that i'm having.
cause the fact is you've left & will never ever return.
-I'll tell myself everyday .
that there's need for me to put you down & treat you just like a normal friend.
-Cause we'll never be the same again.
Right now.
♥-Just wanna find a place,
I can find myself back once again.
-I've to learn to love myself more,
then i'll have the strength to love others & forget all about you.
-I've to be fair.
I would go & learn.
-I'll learn to cherish , i'll learn to treasure.
& all the memories YOU & ME created.
-I'll safekeep it deep down in a place in my heart.
& no one would ever replace that place.
This i promise you.
---♥---iMISSyouKAI---♥---
.
.
.
.
To YOU;
-I'm truely sorry .
I feel so indebted to you.
-Maybe i'm really really used to you.
I know you still love me so .
-But i don't wanna be unfair.
I wanna love you wholeheartly just you in me.
-I don't wanna go breaking you're heart over & over again.
I know boy , it hurts you thoroughly.
-I'm really sorry.
I know , SORRY aint gonna help much in the hurt i cause onto you.
-I admit , i'm really used to you by my side.
But now i can't get my feelings right .
-Don't wanna be untrue anymore.
I just wanna stick to one.
-For once & for all.
I wanna find a solution / a place where i can find my anwers.
-I wanna sort out my feelings
& know what i really want.
-Now i'm feeling so useless & uneasy when you're not home.
am i just too independent or is it true love.
am i just so use to you.
Cause i've been relying you this couple of years.
-I need some thinking through & make a decision that doesn't break you're heart.
It pains me to see you're hurting deep down too.
-SORRY my dear boy):
i really am.
-Give me time, if you still can wait.
But i wouldn't blame if you would to turn & walked away.
`thks for everything once again~
& i'm sorry too ~
-
-
-
-
To darling Jazlyn girl ;
Thanks for always letting me know you're there .
Someone whom i can rely on when i feel like sharing my stuff.
& when i'm ill . msg me and asked if i'm feeling better.
Sometimes i'm really at the edge of my darkest point in life but you never failed to show that you're still around for me to be there and to hear my problems thou you have yours too.
Our friendship throughout this year ain't being a easy one .
Many things had taken place , each and everyone of us have grown up.
Time passes really fast.
& fate brought us tgt to know each other .
this i'll never regret.
i'm happy & glad fortunate that i had you as my friend.
Someone who never fail to show her care .
Thanks girl for everything.
& when i receive you're msg this morning , i was really seriously touched(:
You too take good care alright .
& know i'm always there too.
pls no more late nights & eat well & res well & early .
x33 thanks for everything~
-
-
-
To dearest Bestie;
I don't know why am i writing this also .
But well bestie , its gonna be like coming 4yrs for our this friendship already .
Been really fast.
& for the couple of years , i guess we've been through quite alot.
we do have our disagreements , arguements & also our enjoyments together (:
Thou now, everything might not seems to be the same ,
but just know that in my heart you're already like a family to me.
& if theres anything .
dislikes disputes or whatever.
just come to me and say okays ?
what i mean is . if there's anything just come straight to me .
now we both seems to be so busy with our own stuff .
but know that you're always be my BESTIE no matter whats gonna take place.
thou many times when i need console you would reprimand me or maybe console me in a different way.
But not to worry i know you care, i really do.
Best friends forever right?
thats what we said(:
& i'm always there for you to be you're listening ear. :D
-
-
-
To Brothers & khakis & buddies;
Thanks for always being there for me . & this time round we did went through alot:D
Hopefully everything would still be the same for all of us now & in the future kays?
Most importantly i hope all of us would be trueful luhs?
thks for those who have always been there for me (:
letting me know i'm not alone:D
anw ,
BROTHERS & SISTER & BUDDIES & KHAKIS FOREVER!!!!!
`
`
`
`
`
My 2008 Resolution ;
-Be a good girl & go work everyday .
-Be a good girlfriend to the one i'm gonna be with.
-Earn more money
-Be more skinny
-Have more friends
-No arguements & unhappy things that gonna happen
-Family & friends & those that know me to be happy & healthy(:
-More sensible
-Be a grown up as what i'm suppose to be
-Not crying so much over small things
-Carry on with the happy life
-Be a cheerful girl & happy.
-Not to be so wildful anymore.
-settle in one stuff , and tiongxim.
``when i rmber den will update:DD
waves.
gonna go off .
byes.
x33 with loves
-yvonne-
Yvonne ♥
♥ The girl.
YVONNE
That's what everyone calls & when June7th falls
That's when I'll get older too:D
-myFRIENDSTER (:
MSN; babygal_love88@hotmail.com
I'll be leading a life that I want it to be
& I'll be looking things in other perspectives not too much of the negatives.
Living life stronger everyday.
I guess I've been pretty well grown up.
Learned pretty much in life
All the rights and wrongs
After all the pains that I've went through or perhaps given by others.
Its high time I'd have to be independent.
Basically, I'm sociable and of course friendly.
But do at times, I might be a little way off too crazy.
and I'm a little temperamental but I guess my endurance are kinda of high.
So I wouldn't blow my top easily(:
Big THANKS to those who have always been there for me
I can't be more than content to have all the loved ones around me
& I would want you guys know
I LOVE YOU ALL.
Thank you will never be enough for those who have been there whenever I needed your to be
Gonna be a big girl now and have to stop relying so so much on others
There's still much more to go through.
& as for the rest.
Find it out yourself(:
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`Australia
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-My unique 21st Birthday
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