Monday, July 28, 2008 ♥
I'm super super super super down!
Oh darn!
Super destest this kinda of mood-swing feelings):
-SHOO SHOO.
Go away pls.
I totally hate it
It has been re-ocurring nowadays
just keeps lingering there):
I just feel that my heart has been hanging in the air for a long long time ,
i hate this kinda of feeling being left hanging there out of nowhere:(
All i've ask-d nothing more but just those around me ,
be it
Family , Friends , Relative , or those really really Close buddies , Brothers , Sisters to be really happy.
Seeing them happy is more than what i can have & i'll be more den elated.
Thats all i've ask-d for.
Nothing more but their happiness more ,
But it just seems that i no longer can be that person.
I no longer can hold my smile even when i'm not in the mood when i could .
i could smile even at my lowest point of time but now ,
i would eventually show my real feelings.
I seriously feel so so so darn useless.
:(
:(
It pains me real-ly extrem-ly badly when those close around me starts to change drastically into a totally different person i knew before.
Or knowing that they are in some kinda of trouble.
Even thou i still smile when i know , but somehow it just keep re-appearing into my mind about their problem
maybe i've put ------- to close to heart.
imissyou
i don't know why .
You are the one that i think of whenver i feels alone:(
sighs.
but all that i've done for you , i've never ask-d anything in return before yet the treatment i got back was nothing but SHIT.
:(
what more you wanna ask-d for.
msg-d you call you , don't wanna answer , you think its really over the M------- thats why i call you .
I just wanna see you , maybe just to let my heart feel at ease to see you are fine.
But you've change-d really really tooooooooo much way toooooooooooooooooo much
not the ----------- that i first knew
Vice-versa i always kept asking myself the same question ,
if i were to be the one in need of help , would you lend me a hand ?
-i doubt so you will
thats what my heart tells me.
& as of today:(
sighs.
seriously i don't know whom am i suppose to turn to
is it really true ?
It doesn't pay good to be the kind one?
i don't believe , i choose not to believe.
yea , i'm stubborn , you may think i'm trying to be a santa claus trying to help everyone .
you might think i'm like trying to be an Angel ?
but its not what you think , i just want those i love to be happy thats all):
i don't know if i still can tell you stuff , of my views , my feelings , my thoughts ,
because the feedback from you is really bad.
sighs.
&
i almost broke down at work today , held back my tears so darn badly D:
tried so hard.
yea & i smiled.
difficulty , don't know why , mood-swings so badly nowadays.
kaihong came over to take ciggy ,
pass-d him didn't even talk-d much):
wasn't in best of mood.
Sorry !
but thanks for the concern-d msg you send(:
-Maybe , for the previous relationship with you ,
i've put in too much .
Its true ,
till now i still find it hard ,
difficulty in forgetting you .
-Forget about the past we both had once ,
wash-d away the memories of times we spend tgt in the past .
I wish-d i could ,
if only it is that easy ,
i wouldn't be always thinking about you .
-its stupid , naive to still about you
cos its just stupid ,
thats what others will say .
but they will never know how the feeling hurts just so badly
-& at times ,
the simplest thing that i do
could make me think of you
cos perhaps for once ,
we did it tgt in the past.
-i'm still not able to let go of the past
the past that belongs to you and me
Maybe , perhaps , i'm selfish , stubborn ,
not wanting to let go even after so long ago
-thou i've told myself upteem times
that you're not worth my help
& i shouldn't be nice to you
but i just can't bear to ,
let myself reprimand you or even find faults at you.
-yea , verbally , i've those thoughts , i might say it out ,
but if you were right here ,
i wouldn't bear myself to do so
imissyou
Yvonne ♥
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YVONNE
That's what everyone calls & when June7th falls
That's when I'll get older too:D
-myFRIENDSTER (:
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I'll be leading a life that I want it to be
& I'll be looking things in other perspectives not too much of the negatives.
Living life stronger everyday.
I guess I've been pretty well grown up.
Learned pretty much in life
All the rights and wrongs
After all the pains that I've went through or perhaps given by others.
Its high time I'd have to be independent.
Basically, I'm sociable and of course friendly.
But do at times, I might be a little way off too crazy.
and I'm a little temperamental but I guess my endurance are kinda of high.
So I wouldn't blow my top easily(:
Big THANKS to those who have always been there for me
I can't be more than content to have all the loved ones around me
& I would want you guys know
I LOVE YOU ALL.
Thank you will never be enough for those who have been there whenever I needed your to be
Gonna be a big girl now and have to stop relying so so much on others
There's still much more to go through.
& as for the rest.
Find it out yourself(:
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