♥ You were the best gift

2010-07-02T17:45:00.002+08:00

There was a difference.
Happiness wasn't as easy as you claim it to be.

:C

There's so much unspoken words. I had no idea where to start of from.
There's so much unwanted tears tht keep shedding, i've no clue how it all comes about.
There's so much bottom up feelings, which i totally detest its feeling it kinda of getting me lost.
I don't abide by rules, i don't get played by them. Neither do i get pull down by them.
I am who i am.
Things took a change, i've became different.
Not alot but a bit i guess.
But was a great improvement i believe you do see the changes in youre eyes too.

But you're not me.
You don't know exactly whats running through my mind.
Why do all my close love one torment themselves.
I felt 'failure' at this point of time.
Total F A I L U R E .

I failed in almost everything.
Kinship, Friendship & relationship.
I concede defeat,
I SURRENDER.
I give up.

I've no more strength.
I'm really totally worn out.

At this point of time, i wished you were here still to guide me through , but i don't wanna drag you down no more futher.
Cause i no longer looks further then tomorrow.
You might find i'm only just justifying for my acts finding excuses to make myself feels better.
Not being hurt. But you're totally wrong.
It's not what you think it is.

I don't wanna see.
Or take it that i'm scared to face the fact.
My love one taking their own lives and leaving me here all alone.
I don't want , and i don't know how to go through this kinda of physcially and mentally torment.
I don't wanna let tears take over me anymore, i don't wanna send off any more friends.
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Can i be selfish and asked of you.

Please, let me leaves before any of you guys do.
Because i don't wanna have tht pain in me.

*Perspectives and viewss.
there's nothing much.
Life is such that death is the second option.

2010-05-15T00:29:00.002+08:00

This love. I'll try my best to make it worth.

I know i can never be compare to the rest that you have had.
& thou yes indeed, we had so much that can never meet eye to eyes, disputes tht always arouses.
but nevertheless i still love you.

& i thought i would never loved anyone elses till now,
i realised , i've loved you more than i thought i would.

I don't know how far can we go , how far can our hands hold.
But still, i hope.
We'll try and make this worth.

I may not be as perfect , i may not be the best that you have had.
But i'd try , to fit in youre pace, the way you want me to be.
But you've to let me keep up to youre pace.
BB, i love you.

2010-04-18T01:45:00.005+08:00

ThEnding, No more 'Commars' Just 'Fullstops'

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Been a while ever since I login to my Blog.
Been rotting all this while.
Things have happen, for the one that should and for the one that shouldn't .
A brand new start ? Or Starting afresh but yet still stuck with the past.

I admid , i don't deny, i still can't get over right away.
Its not just one two day thingy.
Its was years, & dude, its was a road tht both took so hard ,
went through so much , fight for what they want , went through all the ups and downs
tears and joy. before everyone start acknowledging and giving their blessings even when some were fake.
but yeah.
The chance were there. I didn't grab hold of it.
I always have taken things for granted, because you loved me way too much before.
Thus letting me having my ways , till i've forgotten our very first vows.
So what even if my tears tht i'm gonna shed would drown myself. i guess i deserve it.
I had you all along, i had you there when i needed you .
but humans changes , i didn't took care of my chance , i didn't grab hold of it tightly , i just allows it to slip through my arms.

THERE'S NO USED OF FEELING REMORSEFUL OR REGRETS.
but sincerely, i hope you would have the best.
Because you deserve a better one.
THanks , & i'm sorry for all those stuff i've ever done to hurt you .
Yet still assuring me everytime tht i've you to lean onto.
& i know, i'd have to stand alone from now on without you.
(:

I miss you & i love you.
But i'll slowly slowly just forget about all this.
The wound would still exist, but i'll just cover up with ours, every one and sweet memories(:

ily, JJG. <3>
thanks!

Nothing could ever be replaced for this love we had down the years. I'll remember you as long as i've my breath still on.

2010-04-05T15:55:00.003+08:00

Just another day, still i knows you're around us like always <3

2010-03-18T10:55:00.003+08:00

R.I.P Dearest Uncle
You were the Best Uncle any elses would never have.

15.03.2010, you took youre leave for a better place in another world,
and please do take care and lead a happier life even better than now.
I Love & Misses you, everyone of us do.

P.S: If any of friends, were to be coming down , kindly give me a call or text.

Thanks for those who have came down being there for me as well as paying my dearest uncle a visit.
Thank You very much!

2010-01-19T15:29:00.002+08:00

Keep it going

down to workplace last night.
had a bottle of martel.
all alone till rivinbb came down.
andy ray and eric were there as well.
as well as jiejieJoan.
justin came down shortly.
finished the drinks,
down to windsor hotel with the co.
:D

and we had a nice journey back to ahjie's yawen place.
haha
laugh all the way while sending her back.
it beats nothing better , to have someone,
whom knows you deep well.
its always nice to have her around la.
SABAI SABAI soon !
hahah
(:

thanks irvinbb, for being so sweet.
everyone was so happy, and he suggesting partying.
thou he's got work tml.
:D
thanks bb <3

photos' will be uploaded soon.
l0ves.

2010-01-15T14:15:00.003+08:00

Can't imagine

HOHO.
Spell l0ves! yeahs!
Have been hanging out with my precious for the past few days<3dearestJazlynn was there ((:
-JUMPSSSJUMPSS
i can't remember but roughly.where we went and did.hmmmms.nevermind, haaaa. but i had a pleasant week with girl.except for the arguments that sparkled with Irvin. :(

& out tonight tgt with my girls again.
Can't wait, and hopefully nothing screws up.
(:

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OH yah.
My tagboard is getting interesting.
And just for youre info,
I won't get irritated but its kinda of fun, to see people like you , whom have nothing to do ,
but doing such childish stuff.
i believe you know me real life , or whatsoever.
but it doesn't matter,
because , i won't be irritated and bear that in mind.
(:
cause i never knew tht there's still such silly ppl around.
HAHA

CHILDISH PIECE OF SHIT!
enjoy tagging in the tagboard.
:D

2010-01-03T17:38:00.001+08:00

The Moment.

HAPPY 2010. BRAND NEW YEAR NEW START.
GOODBYES, 2009!

2009-12-19T14:02:00.002+08:00

我的笨蛋

Been out for the last few days. or for the past few weeks.
& i made ice cream angry for a few days. :C
SORRY!
oks,
NANA, BQ, ClubDolls.
Tampiness with Icecream<3>
and movies.
(:

& other than tht.
work plus work.
So tiring.
>.<

OHOH.
went shopping ytd.
hoho.
spend so much.
but am happy for the first time.
Shopping with Bjvon was NICE.

Shall prepare. and off for movie.
IMissIcecream..

2009-12-02T06:36:00.003+08:00

A Step Close Each Time

HOME HOME HOME
with loves(:

I'm back home yeah.
and it's like 6.36am now.
i'm still wide awake.
Work in the night,
& i guess i'll be a panda sooner or later.
Shall start being a good girl, and home after work.
Home during off days.
I need to replenish all of my loss of sleeps
OH GOD.
:b

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放手,不是因为我不在在乎.
是因为我要你寻找你要的快乐
.而在设么是后,知道当你许要人陪.
我就在这.

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IMISSYOULAH~
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I wanna cuddle you right now .

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Seriously, i know what going on.
So don't think I'm like a idoit or a fool to you.
Because, its just that I choose to be ignorant and pretending.
If you think I'm that easy to make use off than fine with it.
But i've my limits to everything ,
My capability, am running out.

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GOODNIGHTS LOVES.
IT'S GETTING LATE.
AND I SHALL FORCE MYSELF TO BED.

2009-12-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Same place , Different postition.

♥ 爱，可以浪漫，但不要浪费；可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。♥
爱一个人：
要了解，也要开解;
要道歉，也要道谢;
要认错，也要改错;
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；

& its true enough.
Won't one get tired of putting on a brave front?
I'm getting tired.
& i've been going through decisions and choices i should make.
Even if i know its going to be painful , still i think it shouldn't drag.
oh well.
Shall just see how thing will be going .

weather so nice to turn in to slp(:
but yet , i can't .
urghs.
Why am i going against my principal?
Why am i not the same as I used to be?
I hate the way, right now, the way I am.
F F F F F F F F F F! .

Good girl today.
HOME FOR THE ENTIRE DAY.
(:
& sometimes, it really feels nice.

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Oh yahs. Just heard from someone.
OH well.
this person should well enugh know who am i talking about.

Up till now , i've thought you've grown.
Bloodly hell. 24yrs old yet you're still acting like a kid.
seriously, you think youre damn great at everything.
You're not!
you can't even secure youre own boyf what make you have the right to go and say others.
not as if you're looking like a model.
and youre not.
like come on.
if it wasn't for his R_____ would you stick with someone who betray you.
GET A LIFE.
think about yourself even before you make a statement about others!

2009-11-30T12:37:00.002+08:00

A little something to make my day with smiles (:

2009-11-29T16:19:00.002+08:00

Infatuation

Bloody ~~Hangover~~:(

-The one whom you love don't loves you, the one you didn't knew would love you, loves you now.

Out for rounding later.
oh damn.
Drunk last night. yet my mind was sober.
:(
imy.

2009-11-20T04:14:00.005+08:00

I can see yet no longer Feels.

Never able to keep up to youre pace,
Because you've never opened up any space.
Time you said that's all you need,
I've given you all.
I've given you even more than,
what you've asked for.
Keep within,
If I'm able to , I seriously wished to.
Seal the lips , Lock the hearts, Throw the key faraway,
A place where's its unreachable, where we'll never get hold of it.

But if i have to let you go now,
If i really have to do.
Can you just stay for a little while,
Just a little while more to hear me say what i need to say.
Baby, I love you.
& if ever a day , i were to be heaven,
Rest assured, i'll be looking after you from above.
& before i were to leave someday,
I just say someday,
I hope you did hear me saying ,
I love you dear.

Thou , you might not have love me,
As much as how I did in loving you.
But I'm more than content,
More than happy , to have you once, and our memories.
Our disputes , disagreements , laughters , joys , and tears,
We had it all together , hand in hand.
It might had just be for a while,
But its going to follow me for a lifetime.

& if i were to be gone ,
I said , if i were to leave.
Don't tear, For i don't wanna see you cry,
Cause i won't not be there to wipe away youre tears.
but if you do ,
gaze stars in the night,
know that i'm gazing at the very same sky as you ,
just that , i'm not nearby.

Know that , all I've wanted ,
Was nothing more than just for you to smile.
For you to be happy ,
Leading youre life everyday in laughters.
& do remember while I'm still around ,
till god have decide to bring me home.
if you were to need a shoulder to lean on ,
I'll always be there.
If you need a listening ear,
You know where to get me.
If you just need someone to rant at ,
You know , i'm always ready.
Or perhaps , just someone for companion,
I'm more than willing to.

I promise,
If you were to cry ,
I'll cry with you.
If you were to talk ,
I promise , I'll keep in very silence.
If you were to rant ,
Just give it all you can.
If you just merely need a companion ,
I'll just do my utmost to make you feel loved.

Cause baby ,
My world you've once existed,
Be it whatever that happens ,
I'm always here.
& know that out there ,
There's still someone who cares.

2009-11-20T03:25:00.002+08:00

A night, Without you seems so hard to pass by

Finally ! YEAH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My blogskin is CHANGED!
It's rotting I know(:
But who cares.
NO TIME>.<

But at least its much better now.
Hopefully?
but its all in pink la.

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I'm having splitting headache now):
Oh.
Must be the rain which i've got drenched today.
xD
but its alright.
I'm super pleased today thou i've spend like 100plus !
:X
Bought my heels and two new tops.
as well as my other stuff.

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i'm going to bed now. gonna force myself to bed.
there's still work tml!
G O O D Y N I G H T S <3

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I know I shouldn't but the fact is I did.

2009-11-13T03:19:00.003+08:00

Went Astray, what could still make it Stay?

Through love all that's bitter will be Sweet,
& Passion is the Elixir.
It may not always be so,
The one i've loved, would loved me as much as i did.
If this should be , i said if this should be,
That a word i would never wanna hear,
Would be goodbye from you.

i've carrid youre heart iwth me,
and its never me when i'm never without it.
I want no world that's beautiful,
For you're my world my True.

Take away the love,
& our world is dead.

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Oks ! i'm super bored.
PARTY ANYONE?

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Insomia ):

2009-11-10T05:49:00.002+08:00

You're the Music & Love's the rythm

Souls meet Soul's on Lovers lips,
Love is the bridge between two sincere hearts.
Absence sharpens the existance,
Presence , strengthens it.

Sometimes, youre near-ness,
Takes my breathe away.
Plenty of things i wanna say,
But yet , i had no voice to speak.
Then in silence,
I could only Hope.
That you could see what I'm trying to breach across with my eyes.

On the outside,
I'm pretending that I'm still doing fine.
And that I'm still happy even without you.
Yet deep down inside,
It's still bleeding.
Still pretending I've forgotten you.

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PS. pardon me. as my blog's rotting. came to update.

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across our paths, i've met you.

xD

2009-10-26T03:07:00.002+08:00

there's still much more

A bond I thought was strong all these while, wasn't what it was from start anymore.

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2009-10-13T20:56:00.002+08:00

Without Knowing

YEAH ! so great !
am sick for like coming a week :X
urghs.
so uncomfy can walaos.
>.<

anyway, for the last couple of days.
I had fun , cause was out with jazlyn as well as collin & co.
met up some friends , that have been pretty long not in contact .
(:
was a nice gathering.
hereby , thou am a little late still.

Happy Birthday CollinLew

I just woke up not long.
tummy feeling so painful.
craving for kfc now la. -.-
haha.
i miss baby!
:D

shall just go and bathe and prepare.
sis cooking porridge now ;
hoho.
so sweet.

TOODLES!
with loves.

2009-09-30T06:52:00.002+08:00

Disappointed

Have you ever,
Would you ever,
Or perhaps you would never ever.

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I never thought i would ,
I never knew i could.

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PS: Its f random. i don't even know what the f am i here blogging.
PARDON ME >.<
:C

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2009-09-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

I've wanted you

Two movies caught pratically last night:D
Insane. but due to boredness.
no choice>.<
Caught Accident for the 1st show.
Seriously , i had no idea what the show was about, rate it 2/5
Head-d down to PepperLunch for dinner , den walk-d around AMKhub.
:X

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Head-d down to Iluma :D
damn big , but looks super empty.
Shall go shopping there like real soon.
*once i find new job*
hahah
:X
Phobia2 for the second. rate it 3/5
compared to the first 4bia, this one ain't that nice :C

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Down to BQ after that.
Met up with jazlyn.
had drinks over at The next stop ,
together with Vic, Nicky, Louis , Nicholas , Ahxi , Junler , and my dearest Jazlyn! :D
girl girl left early.
well , after that we went down to NANA. ha.
drank den home sweet home:D

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Baby's picture some of them uplaoded alr.
:D
baby's ain't booking out today.
but hopefully his back is better now .
imu.

2009-09-19T03:06:00.003+08:00

Don't go on

LoveAstray

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Few more hours time to gathering.
I simply can't wait.
Hopefully , there'll just be smiles laughters and happyness!

haha.

Ahbaby's asleep now.
In his wonderingLand! :X
& i'm widely awake.
But going to turn in soon.
gotta prepare stuff for BABY.
:D

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Such a good girl
-claps.
HOme for the entire day.
and tml will be another day(:
YVONNE YOU NEED PLENTY OF OF OF SLEEP.

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Dyed my hair.
and i've to say GOodbbye to my GoldenStraps):
URGHS.
HI BLACK HAIR.

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GOODNIGHTS PEEPS.
& Finally , Yvonne have come to realise, many around me are simply just fcuking hypocrites.
So kindly , as for you guys. don't come bother me , i'll not bother you too.
:D

2009-09-17T02:01:00.004+08:00

♥ what went wrong ♥

& the reason is ,
we don't meet eye to eye.
there were never enough of complying,
to youre satifaction.
You made me convinced ,
to all youre sayings.
But you have never did once,
fulfil what you'd promise.
.. You said you wouldn't be like him,you said you were much of a difference,you said you'll not give me the same heartbreak that i had went through.you made me believe...

Perhaps, you never once did,
really understand , what you had said.
Still , with no regrets.
IloveYou. -- In fact, things changes too drastically,just too fast. For me to realise,that the starting have come to an ending.Can things just get back to what it was like from the beginning. -- No arguements, no disputesnothing at all.I hate the way things are right now.You said you will , so can you please just do ?Leaving me hanging out of nowhere,can you just simply imagine , how scary and heart wrenching it will be? .. PS: I ain't sure if you would be reading this.but if you do , i guess you know it's you.You said , i was toying.but whose the one toying right now.No offence , but yes , i miss you.* things weren't suppose to be like this were they?

2009-09-14T22:21:00.003+08:00

tht night, i had you by my side

Happy Birthday to NicholasYeo(:

& to

My lovely HeartOwner, Jasmine:D <3

Went dwn to MarinaSquare to meet up nic and his friends.

went for dinner over at NoSignBoard Resturant.

the guys went to play pool.

blah blah blah.

i'm so lazy to blog everything.

oks.

down to pasir ris after that(:

for heartowner's jasmine's birthday chalet.

reach-d pass her present , and guess what.

i had a present too:D

thanks sweety!

hahah

love it!

and hopefully you'll like youre small lil gift too.

had a smoke , den off i went.

down to cine to meet up louis.

went for kbox.

den home at 5.30Am.

I had the urge to hug you so badly ,

my heart was aching i just felt so heart wrenching.

yet i didn't had the courage to tell you how much i wanted you.

Perhaps , you've given up,

disputes my ample time of salvaging everything we have got.

You didn't seems to bother , neither do you seems to care,

you gave me a complete impression , you just wanted to shove me away.

boy , its went beyond my control,

i didn't knew it would go so far.

I didn't knew it would hurt so bad,

thinking everything might take a change from that night.

No doubts, we did once tried,

things just didn't seems to work out.

But did i or was i even ,

or once matter-d to you.

or stood a place in youre heart,

was i just merely a subsitute that you treated me as one.

Words can't place together,

how much i want you back.

how much i can't bear to let this go.

This fool right here is still waiting for you.

I seriously do not want youre good wishes,

I just want you , can i ?

Can everything just go back to what they were from the beginning,

and not ending up like this ?

I don't seems to get what youre having or thinking in mind ,

you never fails to let me wonder .

were you the one that had given up ,

or was i the one that really did wrong.

Were you even there with youre consicious mind ,

when you said all that stuff you would never do.

Were you awared ,

that i took it true , and placed it in heart.

Cause i trusted you.

You can have my words.

I'll wait , you can simply trust me on that.

IMU.

Can Things Just Be The Way They Were From Start.

2009-09-12T18:09:00.002+08:00

说好的，会一起努力建起。

Its not what I'm seeing , Its not what i'm hearing from you & i'm seeing it happening.
Was i being so f........... stupid , to be able to let you convince me , thinking everything were true.
Yet ending up , i'm the one going through it alone. without you.
Just what had went wrong.
I tried , to please you.
I tried to give in.
But why do things still have to turn out into this ugly scene of ours?
Like seriously. everyone have their dislikes , but you can't expect me to be the one that's always giving in i suppose?

Haven been home early this couple of days.
HOME DURING AM .
I can't fall asleep.
& whenever i'm asleep. I'll have night mare for sure.
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urgh.
i'm so tired.
so beaten.
Like can just angel fly to me and tell me what had really went wrong.
Or what i'm suppose to do , thus will not be ending up like this.

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PS: Ain't pinpointing , just felt like typing nonsense.

You convinced me in believing.
You persuaded me in giving in .
& Yes , I did.
I've poured in everything ,
yet all I get back was words that went down hurting.

I can't figure it out ,
Or perhaps , could someone tell me why.
Its so difficult to find someone that's right?

2009-09-07T07:17:00.002+08:00

Loveme Or Hateme

YVONNE's HOME.
Yes like finally.
:D
GOODMORNING TO ALL (:
i'm hungry:X hahah.
went to catch a movie together with andy(: watch-d 'The Proposal'
Its worth the catch.
Hiliarious.
I so wanna catch BloodTies.

I'm still thinking shall I order mac , or should i just go down and get breakfast.
Mum's off to work.
Sis is still in her wonderland
As for me.
I'm in my sleeping attire & wide awake.
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Can't fall alseep.
But i have to force myself .
because i still have to work later one at 7pm.
super shag.

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Love's is not what everything what one seeks for, sometimes , its just a simple care.
& knows that iloveyousweet.
i miss you so badly.
urghs.

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GOODNIGHTS ALL.

2009-09-04T05:05:00.002+08:00

Whats ME without YOU

its 5.11am now.
:D
nicholas pick-d me up from work down to kallang den back home.
My blog has been rotting.
or perhaps it's already rotted.
:XX

I'm sleeepyyyy, but i can't fall asleep.
There's so many things going around my mind.
:(
urghs.

One can't be content.
Can't be satisfied ?
Or perhaps , its how the way they breach themselves across that make others get the wrong idea.
So being friendly , a GOOD or BAD thing.
I really can't find the definition.
:(
所为的珍稀是如何的解释？
满足，是否我们真的明白它的意义？
Get bewildered.
But i know.
There'll never be an answer , or a vaild reasons to all the WHYS.

Upcoming celebrations.
:D
am going to be so busy.
but luckily , i'll be off for a few days.
been so so shag.
:(
shall just turn in soon .
gonna wake up in another 2hrs time.

POWER NAP:DDDDDD
HOHO.
>.<

2009-08-20T02:34:00.002+08:00

TOTALLY INSANE-.-

AHA.:D Just had a sillyly-est or perhaps the stupidest conversations with some people=.-and and . its ended up really stupid.>.<

PS: ITS MY BLOG , I SUPPOSE I've THE RIGHT TO SAY WHATEVER I WANT TO ? DO I ?

& someone did mention , online talkings doesn't matter only messages does(: -girlf quoted-

I do have some enquries that's kinda of bothering me which i hasn't really get my answers or perhaps a conclusion

1. a msg or something , does it have to turn out to get a threat from someone ? and it turns out that that person's whose giving that threat says they wanna report to police. Or maybe i should asked or enquire from a policeman if there's chance :D

2. So when a person tells you that , if you or whosoever , contact their friend or perhaps youre friends, they'll go up to youre door and start making a nuisance :X

basically , don't you find it just so LAME ? or its so un-called and un-neccessary. or some kiddo doings ?

Girlfriend says: Treat it as a joke.HAHAH.No worries man girl. thou we're in fact younger by them like alot. by a few years.but i guess their points of view is super limited.:D
Look things at different perspectives and view. and don't go round talking with contradicting words...I'm so totally beaten and sleepy , but because of what had happen , i'm super awake now.just find it just so hilarious. don't know why. :xSound so mean. but i guess that's why blogs comes in right ?for people to rant about what happen in lifeor daily & its .LIke middle of the night ?02.56AM?So instead of disturbing my friends and telling them this , i might as well RANT it out in my blog.if not why do i create one in the first place.:DLet it LIVE. instead of rotting.I know my post is so gonna bored people that comes reading it.But its not suppose to be exciting anyway , i just feel like ranting out.and girlf's says that i should just rant it out here:Dso here I AM :]I suppose i'll be having sweet dreams later.-giggles.Don't know why. but i suppose so.I should just simply sleep like now. cause not as if i've got nothing better to do.but just before i turn in , i'd update my blog a little.SORRY FOR BOREDING YOU GUYS WITH MY LIL RANTING POST OF MINE:DPardon me.----------Bear in mind, good things don't last forever(: whats yours now might just disappear....Anyway , i don't expect any that i DO NOT know , or i DO NOT regard them as friend , to come my blog.but if you wish to just comes in and take a look .FEEL SUPER FREE TO DO SO:Ddoesn't bother me at all , i've got plenty of things to do (:GOODYNIGHTS PEEPS

b's the love, iloveyouBabyJvon(:

& richness doesn't matter if you have them or whether you own a car , or company. but I know Love's not forever, but least we had once. and that , we're not so petty in whatever both party are doing , we have TRUST:D because you're someone that worked for it. & i'm proud of you .

MyLoveBabyJvon

2009-08-18T19:02:00.002+08:00

Cm'on , don't make yourself into such a fool - BIG girl-

HILARIOUS!
Some humans just think they're way too smart living in life.
wherelse , they doesn't knows , they are so in fact being <u>Stupid,Childish
From what they claim or whatsoever.

Look up into the dictionary !
for god sake.
EVER-theres plenty of different terms in it.
Ever -
1. A word meaning at any time , used mostly in question , negatives comparisons or sentences with IF.
Its doesn't mean just F O R E V E R !
Never Ever ; spoken NEVER: - you never ever offer help.

SO please get this in mind.
not that i don't understand english . but whatever a word being spoken , there's terms different meanings.!

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Anyway , i don't have such time to go entertaining youre msges , or letting you come rant youre anger at me for nothing.
I'm not youre toy. not youre nobody , you wanna go crazy , go find someone else.
I'm gonna get it from you ?
come on . youre at such a age , can't believe you still go around giving threats.
-.=
If you guys had any disputes between one and another , don't get third party involve , solved it between yourself , keep in within doors. Don't go ranting in the middle of the night , acting like a lunatic.

Been a 4days issue, or let me put it in this way.
Its has passed 4days already. why rake the topic now ?
and why are you the one and not him?
-.=
Ain't it hiliarious ? or ain't it ridiculous ?
HAHAA.

Look into the mirror , you quoted.
I guess , everyone has their parents.
I bet you had yours too.
I'm happy with how I look , least , i'm still average.
And don't misunderstood , i'm not saying you are UGLY.
you're not.
i guess preferably , everyone have their own liking or dislikes.
I won't say , that i'm a threat , because i've never thought neither did it came to my mind that i'll snatch him from you.
WHY SHOULD I ?
but , why get so uptight , if you're not comparing yourself against me ?
>.<

& even if i did , msg-d him.
but come on you wanna rake the past.
FROM THE FIRST FIRST START .
who was the one who asked who out ?
go and ask before making youre opinions.
after so long , of not contacting.
who was the one who get my number in the middle of the night to ask me out.

who'll be such a fool , idoit , or retard to go and find someone in the middle of the night.
not as if they ain't got other friends.
why me ?
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My objectives to you :
BIG GIRL. Yes , i may be younger then you.
but get this in mind , youre so call lover , ain't the first time that blew everything up.
from what i know , its the 2nd.
whose the one whose having wishful thinking ?
and if i ain't wrong , you guys broke up once ?
so ?
and bear this in mind , you were the one who comes texting me ,
i've got work , and not nothing better to do .
if you've work , and sensible enought.
you would be the one that wouldn't start this nonsense.

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BaybJvon iloveyou. ♥
I'm happy with my life. I'm happy living with my current boyf.
I've not extra time , to go entertaining you.
Because whatever that's between you guys . keep it within doors.
Don't go ranting and act like a lunatic when you hasn't get things clear. you'd make yourself like a fool instead.
& whether anot , i'm being rated on how I look , i doubt you have the rights to say so .
Because , i've my opinions too.
:D
If youre boyf ain't R__ aint has any C__ i doubt you would go back to him?
would you ?
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afterall , its still just M__________ thinking.
(:
Who would someone go back to that party knowing they had been UN-Faithful?
I doubt so I'll be able to BigGirl.

P.S: so sorry , this post ain't about updating what i've did recently.
But i just find that i need to rant it out here.
Its my blog , i guess , i've the rights to say what i want or how i'm feeling.
Nothing to disgraceful , because i wasn't the one who stired up trouble for no reasons -.-

2009-08-17T15:36:00.003+08:00

what would it be ?

谢谢你。

I'm so sleepy -.-
urghs.
Gotta go bathe & prepare for work soon.
Been working like 5days per week.
:D
and its so fcuking shag.
urghhhhhhhs.
快累死了!

bathe and put on my bloody make up.
cause i take such long time.
urgh.
so sleepy.

anyway , life have been fun.
for now.
pretty well , manageable.
(:

there'll be more updates next month.
:D
hoho!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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miss you , but i'm happy , i've grew.

2009-08-13T01:18:00.007+08:00

know that I love you. ♥

I blewed it,& yes i did
~~text-d you again~~

Firstly: i suppose i should out of courtesy.
~~130809~~
Happy Birthday AWWL.

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Photo's taken over at OASIS:D
on the 090809 early 100809
(:
I had a fun day.
all drenched & high:)
with all my loved ones , still , i did miss you.

the night were wonderful.
thou, its wasn't like the whole usual group. but most of us were there.
except for some.
basically , yes , i admit , i miss those days .

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& so now, i'm so busy tightly up with work work and work(:
so hardly have time for my girls as well as my buddies and brothers.
& of course my precious.

but that's where i can numb myself from all the reality for at least a moment of time.
:x
urghs.

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hmmm.
so ........
Yesterday:D 120809
finally , i met up Boonhoe! :D
haa.
he lost so much of weight.
hoho.
:XXXX
came over to pick me up from work , back home to pick up my clothes and passport.
den off to M'sia.
yeah, rode in, bought some stuff , and pump petrol.
Woodlands back at like 4am.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

So precious me.
slept at like coming 6am.
toss-d and turn.
urghs.
woke up today early in the morning at like 11 ?
wtf? i know.
ha. due to some issues. so yeah.
:X

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************************ ITS 0136AM
I'm still wide awake, everyone's asleep which i should be too instead.
but here i'm blogging. since its kinda of rotting.
:D

-let the pictures do the talking:D

Something's wrong with blogger lah! -.=

2009-08-02T22:54:00.003+08:00

never will i find someone like you

你会还记得，说过的话吗?
你不在乎，但为何我还想你。

What if, there's no what if.
Whats there to still be reminscine?
Not there, no longer will it be.
All that's left , is just empty memories.

The song I used to sing,
Youre shadow are always there.
This time round ,
When I sing.
You'll not be.

Youre something that I hold dearly,
Someone , I hold close and gives in.
I don't ask for more,
Cause youre more that I can asked for

& like finally ,
Once and for all.
I'll forget you,
Forget that you once exist.
Trying my very best.

Forget you , forget about everything ,
Forget the things you said once before.
And forgetting you , will not be easy ,
But I know I will be able to do it

Smile , for youre doing fine ,
and that youre still happy.
Elated , I'll definetly be,
Be who I am , from the first day you've knew me.

That'll never change,
Because , that's me.
Down the years ,
Down this road.
Even without you in this journey,
I'll still smile.

:D

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Turning in to bed like so soon.
PANDA EYES.
:X
urgh.

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thou certain times , I miss-es you so badly
I'll hold myself back so much ,
tell myself ,
and repeat this.

-might not be a bad thing that things ended up this way.
might not be a pleasant scene , a bad thing.
But a lesson learned and beared in mind.
I'll not repeat this for the third time.. --

only realising , missing you is no big deal. because that's what human do's.

2009-07-27T15:05:00.002+08:00

a journey, hand in hand

baby's off to camp.
& i'm home now :D
alone as usual :[
♥ miss baby la !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

play-d majong last night.
haha.
and guess what.
i had 十三yao.
hahahhahahah~

been so long ever since i last touch-d my blog.
hmms.
ok lahs , i miss baby.
i miss hanging out with brothers and girlf's .
urgh.

basically i miss alot of things

ps : why would you come in my thoughts now.
shooo shoooo.

2009-07-09T11:44:00.003+08:00

Every Little Things We Do

Given paths ,
We choosen ours.
Yet , Its never too late to turn back our heads ,
& choose it all over again
Instead of ending up in regrets.

Through nights ,
May angels guide you through.
Trought days ,
May you walk and succeed in everything you do.

There's bound to be joy of laughters ,
and abudant of sorrow with tears,
We live and leaves,
That's for sure for everyone someday.

There's never enough of satisfaction,
Never enough of complying.
Cause there's just too much,
& too little that's content.

Despites , of all the wrongdoing ,
Sometimes , perhaps ,
By not doing the right thing ,
would be instead the right thing.

Smile , cause there'd always be a better place,
For there's no ending unless we have sealed up the future.
None's indispensible ,
For we live for ouselves and not for others.

Through ups and downs ,
We pick up from falls.
Through good and bad ,
We learned whats right and wrong.
Through agony and abundant of joy,
We'll grow.

Good things they don't last ,
Don't come reminiscing , only when they're gone.
Why ain't they being appreciated when they were still around ,
yet come in tears when they're no longer available. .. The greatest succeed in life , is to learn from mistakes and not repeat them.Pick ourselves up from where we fall , and get stronger.Not holding back in life , but move on and live even better then what it is now(:There'll be no one to pity you if you continues to stay at where you are.You'll just allow others to despise you.Choose the right thing to do.Instead of waiting.Sometimes , feelings leads you the wrong way.Use BRAINS instead:D

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i miss the days where we used to do things together.
but its never forever.
for good things , they come and they go.
so be content , and treasure whats around (:

& even if everything's gonna repeat once again,
I'll still say this.
All I've wanted was you to be happy.
:D
& none matters more.
because there's little sacrifices in lives we have to make.
But i've no regrets in meeting you.

thou you were a ~~jerk,ass~~
but still , the love you gave was loved.

ily. <33 bibi

2009-07-05T10:42:00.002+08:00

- Fireworks -
WenLong[:

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Light My Smile

Suppose-ly to work.
I didn't went due to tummyach.
guess i had something wrong eaten:X
see doc , doc says might be stomach flu

den ahB's say he've got tics to NDP.
So
Went to NDP's rehersal last night .
Together with Aaron , Eugene , Jiajun , Felicia & AhB.
[:
Parade was pretty fine.
Weather was hot , but turns out cooling in the night:D
So pretty well , everything was still fine.
But I was bored & tummy was randomly on and off pain.
I just purely wanted to watch Fireworks.
That was why i would go and 'kuey xio'
Basically , I wasn't paying attention to the shows.
HA.
Entertaining myself with Ahb and aaron.

Ahb was irritated , BECAUSE.
I can't wait for the fireworks.
then like finally ,
being so quiet almost and its such un-usual thing that I'd do.
at coming 8PLUS
YVONNE SMILED WIDELY!
hahaha!!!
Look and AHB and smiled.
:D
hahah
Ok , i know , so kiddo right.
But oh well ,
everyone have something that will make their day.
So as for me.
Rainbows , eagles and fireworks.
they can make the worst mood of mind switch back to smiles.

AARON: You very high hor ?
ME: HAHA , ok la. Nice ma !
AARON: faster faster come liaos , take pic.
ME: -Panicking , okok wait wait , phone like hang
AARON: *SMILES
ME: *SMILES BACK WIDELY

Aaron turn to AHB and says.
She uh , just now so quiet , see until fireworks so HYPER one.
hahahha

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So left the parade head-d over to suntec for dinner.
Aaron and AHb was so hungry la.
ha.
:D
after dinner , headed down to TGPAGAR:D
supposely down to HANS.
but no space .
so too bad.

walk-d around ,
and we found a nice chilling bar.
:D
forgotten the name but its just located right beside 99:D
drank , sing song.
den home sweet home.

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I have videos of the fireworks.
Shall upload it soon:]

LIGHTS OFF @ 5AMplus.
:X
& I'm like woken up at 8plus
-sucky feeling.
slpy nah.

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I don't know why , Feeling super hiliarious.
By some thinkings and the way they do things ?
oh well , i don't care.
I kinda of like the way I'm living life like this now:D
Not so much of worries & un-happyness.
ILOVEYOU.

2009-07-03T15:43:00.002+08:00

sweeet

Work tonight.
& I've replenish-d all of my sleepless nights just yesterday.
Ho.
slept for more then 12hrs.
:DDDD
And the weather were good ,a thou thunder & everything .
Buts still , its cooling !!!!
:]

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haa.
so hmmmm.
went out on wed.
over to chomp chomp for dinner.
den down to pub to have drink.
haa.
den after that , over to geylang(:
for frog porridge.
met up potato , lai , kelvin , ziyou , bee and another girl.
slack den headed home:D

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imisssweetheart.

iloveyoubaby

you shall be my everything [:

I'll be your FaithfuLover.

2009-06-28T19:32:00.002+08:00

Say it once more

Could things ever remain the same,
and not turn into drastic change.
Plenty of memories ,
You know it can't be replaced.
Neither , do i want it to ,
nor let it fade away.

I remember the times ,
where i had y ou by my side.
I remember the nights ,
We watch the stars shinning its light.
The tenderness ,
I can't denied , simply hard to forget.

Can time rewind ,
OR could it be paused at the happiest time.
Been a while ,
Have been days ever since it passes by.
Yet it still seems like just yesterday.

I tilt my head ,
Look upon the very same sky.
Ponders the days ,
wonder if you ever did had a place for me.

I had silly thoughts ,
I had naive thinkings ,
To cover everything ,
and allowing you .
To leave the good impression that everyone has for you.
I know its dumb ,
because you're not worth doing

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ahb's loved.
thank you & i love you.
-cuddles.
thanks girls for being there.

-she says ; high time you stand and speak up for yourself and not to let others walk over you.
because people around my surroundings they don't appreciates.
so why do so much.

- Indeed , its time to go against my goody conscious and be a little bit more sensible , or perhaps clever in living life.
:D

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Life's never a FairyTale
Live hard Play Smart:D

2009-06-26T13:51:00.002+08:00

went Astray

Too much to compromised , there's just too many , yet can they be satisfied .
I'm exhausted , I'm tired .
Just wanna be who I am.
& I don't need you to guide me , neither will you be the one that'll stop me from moving on.
I'll prove to you , i'll do better even without you!

bibi , iloveyou.

2009-06-16T13:32:00.004+08:00

th long night
Been a while since I last really blog about what I did in my daily life oh well , celebrat-d my birthday over at my place.then down to drink over at 68, near SabiSabi.Switch-d over to TgPagar then home sweet home.Thanks to those who have wish-d me and those that have came down to make my day.muchLoves! <3& for the most recent stuff.Celebrat-d Potato's ahkor birthday.Down to T3.den to eastcoast to cut cake.un-pleasant stuff happenbut sort-d out[:---....late 15th early 16th:..I really have no idea what you're thinking,I don't understand you.& I don't wish-d to this time round.If it were to be at that point of time at that very moment in the past.I will , continue.But right now , I'm kinda of afraid.I don't wanna start all over again...You still matters alot , You still do.I just want-d to let things lay as what it seems to be.Let go of you & simply move on.I seriously don't deserve-d to be loved.Why do one , can't just be true towards themselves.Whats the point ?Giving attitude leaving them clueless about what they've done wrong.No reasonsNo points of views.Then just let me go ..I can't afford , I can't managed my heart ,To go through this again and again.You weren't there when I need-d you,Neglected me and ignored my existance.& when I'm no longer there.Why showe-d me care, Why give me loveleaving impression you would want me backwhy show up again , when I've decided to just let thing maintain this way...You ask-d why am I so different in the past.Perhaps , due to so much stupid stuff and pains , others have put me through.& humans are constantly changing my dear.You're not the one I knew before too , I've never ask-d for more , yet , your expectations are getting higher each time.What are we really are right now!?
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Do you really bother about me , or its just the same as how i feels .Can't bear to , Or am i merely just a subsitute to let you allows time pass by.I seriously don't mind being there for you.I really don't mind lending out my shoulder to allow you to lean.I don't mind , just a talk in wee hours.But don't , really don't give me hopes & goes thrashing it again.I admit defeat, i admit , I can't go through this again.I can't , and really can't afford to...Don't treat me nice , I rather you treat me as in the past ,its ok if you ignores my calls , its ok if you neglect me and go with your friends.and its alright even if you doesn't bother about me at all .it perfectlyalright if you were to give me attitude.I don't wanna be in any Dilemia no more..I still love you, yes I still do.I can't bear to , but I don't want this to be the reason why I'm holding onto.Don't make my road ahead of me misty again, I had a difficut time , in clearing it to see where I wanto head towards.--But knows , you matters alot.I'm so afraid , you'd take your leave again , only after when I'm back used to your presence.-----------..............I've realised in fact , I've worried just too much,Shouldn't have been so concern-d , and shouldn't have cared so much.A stone , remove-d partially , thou its not all of it.but i'm feeling better now.--& from now , even if i were to care about something , I'll just ignore it , no point.really no point and all.I've learn-d and I understand now...I'm sorry for not putting myself in your shoesI'm not worth.Sorry for the caused of who you are now , because it was my fault .everything started off with me.Therefore , hereby please accept my apology.--PS: Not pin-pointing...From now , i'm not going to care so much , and this time round , i'll do what i say.I'm exhasted , too tired.Its enough stop all this torturing...I'll still be there , If you still need meI'll still be there to let you know I care.But I'll not step in any further then that,because this is the most that I can do , and my fuel is totally been used up.--I really wanna know , what are you think -WL; WenLong:D-]:

2009-06-12T13:52:00.002+08:00

Never Knew

After all the pains , Others put me through.
I've thought , I've grew.
Whenever I feels blue ,
I'll tell myself to stay cool,
With a calm mind and heart to get it through.

I thank god ,
I met you and I had you.
You would always make me feel at ease .
And that if i were to fall , you'll still be there
Our thinking were always on the same track.
Till that very day ,
things starts goes off path .
A little off way,
the love had went astray.

I never knew ,
you had this little trust in me after all this while
I've asked myself a thousand times ,
I've not done enough.
Or have I given in just too much.
I let down my pride ,
just give me a little dignity that's all I would asked
Little sacrifices for this love ,
I don't mind ,
I would give it all just to exchange for you smile.

Give me a little space ,
I'm having a little shortage of air to breathe.
The road ahead of me no longer seems visible.
Know that I love you.
But still , I'd need my freedom.
Don't let me go the wrong way ,
If you want me to stay.

I don't need any hoaxing from me ,
I just need your true care and understanding.
Don't let go off my hand ,
but if you've given up salvaging ,
den kindly let me go.
Don't hold me back ,
only when you thought you still need me .

I've never knew ,
there's just this little trust from you in me after all this while
I've asked myself a thousand time ,
was it you or me.
That have changed.
But my heart , you clearly knows.
You're still the one living in it ,
and the song I sing along,
It carries with your name.

I cried myself to sleep at night ,
Recalling times , where we were at start.
Why are thing so much of difference now ?
I don't wanna let go ,
I don't bear to ,
But please , do let me know .
Does it still matters to you.

I'm tired , I'm totally beaten .
No longer still have the strength ,
to witheld all this burden all by myself.
I need your support ,
your encouragement.
Don't make me lose this trust in you.

Told myself to be strong ,
No matter what the obstacles will be .
I've to pull myself together to keep this in a piece.
Don't go on breaking it ,
and letting it drift apart.
Because I might not hold it back this time round.

Humans are constantly changing ,
changes so rapidly ,
that I can bearly remember who were they when I first knew.
Why can one be so hard-hearted on doing some issues on others ,
and never knew how greatly the bad impact would leave on them.
Why do they have to betray the trust they have in them ?
They've no conscious , won't it remind of them ?
The hurt they've brough upon others.

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I'm sorry for not being there.
I'm sorry , because i doubt I'm worth to be your friend.
I've not done enough ,
and I'm always not there.

2009-06-05T15:51:00.002+08:00

Would you still be there.
thou It's been a while ever since so long.
So long , that's enough for me to put it behind.
Yet , I'm still holding on.

I don't mean to love you,
But I've did.
I didn't mean to pour in so much ,
But everything that I've , i've given my all.
There's nothing left ,
except for memories that have you in it.

Why hold me back ,
when you've decided not to care.
Why lead me on ,
when you're in fact not sure what you really want.
Why give me hopes ,
when you know , i've yet to recover from my previous fall.

where's the one i first knew .
So true and so direct .
Why are we going in circles ,
over and over again.
do i still have a place in your heart.
or have my position have already been filled up

i don't need you to stay ,
i don't have any say.
this love have went astray ,
no way to salvage .
You've went far away
right now , yeah right now.
Just stay this way ,
its more then what I can asked.

Let go of me ,
if you've no clue of holding onto me
Straight to the point.
I know its going to hurt badly .
I know its going to take a while ,
for the pain to go away
But let me know.
least , I don't have to hold onto this heartbreak.

Why hold me back ,
when you've decided not to care.
Why lead me on ,
when you're in fact not sure what you really want.
Why give me hopes ,
when you know , i've yet to recover from my previous fall.

For all this while ,
Everything seems to be just like pretty yesterday.
You've never seems to left ,
perhaps , i can't take the fact.
but right now ,
everyone says move on ,
seriously , where do i go .

I miss you badly .
real badly ,
but i know you won't return .
neither do I pin hopes ,
nor do I wished for everything to rewind ,
I just want you to be happy.

farewell ,
goodbye ,
wasn't in my list .
But somehow ,
It has appear out of blue .
from nowhere , just so sudden.

Never did I thought it would be so fast .
Its just too fast .
Happy-ness came so quickly , and it went off faster then I've expected it to be.
We gain and lose .
I've gain memories , Lost my smiles

I shouldn't have poured in too much to love you .
Because till now , my heart seems to be missing a piece.

2009-06-03T19:44:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to do.
feeling so fcuking bad now. :[ i feel like crying . oh fffffff!

2009-06-02T13:32:00.004+08:00

I don't wanna grow up

In 5days more
& i'll be older a year again :(
this time round , i wish-d i'll just be a little smarter.
Ain't any plans of how to celebrate.
Because , i guess , when you aged.
You find no meaning in celebrating.
Will be having steamboat at home with family.
Ain't sure if friend would be coming.
Any suggestions or how to celebrate.?
hmm

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从来没想过不能再和你牵手
假装什么伤都没有, 笑着说不痛
倔强不让眼泪往下流.
你会不会想起说过的话, 如果有缘在见
一直忘了对你说, 谢谢你曾经爱过我.

there's a voice that's in my head.
The reason why I'm still singing.
But there's a missing piece ,
And its only you,
None just can fit in.

Defeated by you ,
Yet , I can't find the reason why I'm still holding on.
I've chosen to walk it out ,
Yet , at the very end , I still find myself back at the same old place.

I'm clinging onto ,
Or I've never forgotten you.
A fact or an excuse ,
Hang on , Or just simply move on without you .

Life's a play , figure our your roles.
& OnlYou
have the ability to make me feel this way.
D i l e m i a .
with no rights directions.

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I miss you

only0u

2009-05-26T16:27:00.004+08:00

Everyone would leaves someday.
A matter of when and how.
Why can't one be content?
Why can't one be true ?
Why can't one just be satisfied with what they have?

Taking things for granted ,
Giving all that you could.
All that you have , you've given it all.
Ain't it m ore then enough?
But have ever anyone given they appreciations?
All that was return , were just heart wrenching words .

Should it be you or me.
I guess , everyone have went through hard falls.
Real hard , that you can never forget clearly how it pains.
The scar still remains ,
The memories to reminisce

Don't humans get sick of hurting others.
can't they fcuking use their brains to think or even put themselves in the other party shoes.
Don't be so bloody selfish , think for others can.

It the thoughts that counts ,
Its the hearts that matters.
Don't play with others if you're not sincere
or perhaps make yourself clear from the start.
That this is just a play.
or whatever.

Will you stop being foolish and that naive.
Its over.
Move on .

P.S : ain't pin-pointing anyone.

when life and love have torn your heart apart , where do the shattered piece lies?
Where did it went to ,
Will it even be place back together someday?
Or just remain as what it is in place ?

A glimsp of hopes ,
I rather not behold.I'll not even pin on any.
Awful dreams I would prefer or perhaps a nightmare to a wonderful and sweet dream,
that I'll be awaken and wake up in tears and fears.So far yet so near.But its never to avail.

For all things , time will let you used to everything.
Time can never rewind back to the sweetest time.
But if there's a possilities , I'll rewind back and not step into.

Thank you for the wonderful time.
Thank you for all the smile you've brought .
Sorry , I've never done enough.
Sorry , that I've never gain your trust.

But I've done my best ,
I've given it all.
I've never ask for more.
You know it deep downAll I've ever wanted was you to be happy.

Love is not that everyone that asked for.
Sometimes , its just the care they need.
And in fact , time don't really heal or allows you to forget the wounds.
and its not easy to endure it too.

Would there ever be a time that there'll be love that doesn't hurts.
and its not true.
broken piece can never be fixed back in place.
It will always remained the same.

the worst thing of loss ,
its the definition ,
cause we'll never be able to share the pain.
Its still pain , even if its unintentionally.

Oks, its super random i know.
:Ci'm so not going to break down in tears.I'll NOT.Hopefully D:

i miss you badly.
i really do.
and everytime , when I would want to breach across this subject to you.
I can't find the courage to.
Or perhaps, leaving it this way, pretending as though nothing has taken place.
would it do any good instead? -- Birthday just around the corner soon.And its june soon.(Pocket gonna burn a big hole)Too many June Babys.Turning 19th(june7th).

Would I even see you that day?

2009-05-26T10:14:00.003+08:00

That's it or its not?

Work last night.
but surprisingly , close sharp at 1am(:
went over to O+ t wait.
smoked chit chatted.
wait-d for ahbee.
then down to dam,

met up ziyou & kelvin.
Potato came down shortly after.
slack, chatted.
haha.
Ziyou came out with one new phrase.
'no dog run'
haha

ahbee left early.
then a while later , jasmine and bobo left too.
weilun came down shortly after that. with his doggy 'meimei'
hahah
super cute la his husky.
while i brought the dog for shorts walk the guys had their talks:D
all the way till around 5plusAM.

reach-d home , bathe and everything.
& i had difficulty in sleeping .
like wtf la.
stupid.
& finally after of rotting on bed for like an hour or so ?

Lights Off at 6.45am(:

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A complete blank of mind,
there were certain times where thought runs in ,
But I had no idea what was the thinking all about.
I no longer pin hopes , I can't face another downfall.
As long as I am still able to see your faces with smiles,
I'm content.
& whether I'm indeed truely happy , it doesn't matter.
as long as you are, that's enough.

I can't figure out why,
there's this fear that lives within me.
:C

I'm not happy as what you think I am, but i'm glad cause you showed care?

2009-05-24T18:24:00.002+08:00

hypotized

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESMONDONG(:

down to GoldenMile -J.dee-
Some thai disco
Finished the bottle of martell ,
down to Riverside Point some bar cafe ?
Kenny's birthday.
had 2jugs.
den down to ZOUK.
yeah, its was f----- pack.
was so fcuking hot la.
as if in suana.
had , vodka orange , e13 and whisky with sprite.
haaaaa,

gary , jervon and me left early.
haa
left at around 4am i guess?
while esond and gene still hang there.
oh , there's kenny group too.
too many names to remember.

but yesterday was fun ,
been so damn long ever since i last club or hang out.

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weird feeling.
funny thoughts.
broken hearts.
I don't know why.

2009-05-22T18:40:00.002+08:00

>Still Lingers

I visually remember what I did for the last recent days.

hmmmm
hmmm

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Went to have a late dinner with BB over at causeway point over at 'Dian Xiao Er'
Dinner was nice(:
so after dinner , just purely walk around, den home.
while , i went out:D

Lawerence came over to pick me up.
den down to Serangoon to collect his car stuff.
den down to 'SecretGarden' my working place for a drink.
after that , head-d down to Dam to meet up Potato , ahLai & ahRoy.
HOME sweet HOMe.
:DD

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Met up Potato , Ahlai , ahbee , Ahdi , ahboy , kelvin , zhiyo & ahbee
:D
down to dam.
had late dinner with potato over at Lavender.
Home at 3plusAM.
:D

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Its been 10 days since i last hear and see from him:(
I miss you !

2009-05-18T18:52:00.002+08:00

someday, you'll know

7days after tomorrow pass.
but i'm still that very fool.
urghs.

work tonight, not enough of sleep.
am so tired now.
:(
and so not in the mood .
swing swing swing.
hate it.
darn!

Just what are you thinking , what's in your mind ?!

2009-05-17T10:47:00.002+08:00

Sunday, but I woke up with a bad mood

]:
my mood feels so bad.
as if there's a huge huge stone compressing down onto me:(
my tears they're on the verge of shedding.
urghs.

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Anyway , have been going out late for the last one week
Out with Potato & Co.
were down to Kallang mac the recent that I can rmber.
:X
Ahlai's birthday.
slack all the way there till like 3plus?
den down to eat LORMEE
they ate.
and I saw who I wanted to saw.
But there's just too plenty of un-sorted words.
D:

As for yesterday , BB took me to NewYork for late lunch.
& I was so freaking full , didn't finish my food.
so after food, out for puffs.
den up to PoolCenter
&& GUESS WHAT.
I WON BB.
:D
he got real damn shock-d
Gene and Yvonne came down shortly after that.

Went up to get tickets for the show(:
we watch , Fireball Muay Tai Dunk, hope i didn't get the show name wrongly.
so while waiting for the show which were at 7.20pm,
we went over to NeboHub for dessert.
I ate way too much yesterday.
oh f.

The show was NICE :D
the fighting scene were damn powerful.
but due to the camara keep shivering it became not really good.
but overall , the show is worth the watch.
Don't mind watching it again.
ha.

work tonight, and i'm so lethargic.
urgh.
And on top of swing moods :((
oh damn.

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2009-05-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

Just like this

Am at Kallang mac now:D
together with Ahbee and co.
:D
haha
shall update again

and like finally , catch up with darling jazlyn.
had Aijisen.
happY!

2009-05-14T15:12:00.001+08:00

What the F is wrong with HUMANS!

SO DAMN SICK OF MY SURROUNDINGS! /span>

2009-05-13T22:51:00.002+08:00

Raindrops Takes Over The Tears That I shed Quietly

I feel so pressurized, there's a huge stone and I just feel real uncomfortable.
I feel like screaming , shouting my anger or just that uncomfy feeling out :(
And my tears, I'm holding it back so so tightly.
I've tried. I really tried.
Smiling all day , and pretend everything's going well.
But it doesn't help much at all.
doesn't.
I wish-d you were here right now.

Pratically, I don't know what went wrong.
Or was it wrong of me to be nice to others ?

So what is what ?
And what is right.
I don't want to care

I'm living my life happily now.
So please , don't come dragging me down.

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I'm alone at home.
Mummy's on her way back now.
Sis staying over at aunt's house.
& my tummy have been giving me problem as well as my head :(
urgh.

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if only you would be here to tide through this bad times with me.
least, I'd have a shoulder a someone to lean.

2009-05-13T06:16:00.003+08:00

Out Of Blue
~~good or bad ? or there's ain't any of them.~~

I had a wonderful Monday or perhaps so called early Tuesday
with none other then this special ONE.
the dearest as ever, it never seems to changed.
But the happiest thing out of everything, I've finally got my answers to the previous incident personally from you.
Thus, its like removing a stone out of me, and I can finally breathe happily now.
Not so bad as the past.
Like finally!
YES, finally , in the end, I've got my answers and reasons.
BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT , its not all of my questions yet, for the other one , unless , I'm indeed super drunk , or where I can get courage from , thus I believe, I'll ask you.
But for now , this is fine enough.
Though its not the best but least , I'm content.
I've never ever asked for more from the very start , all that I've asked for is to treat me with a true heart.
But I guess , or perhaps , you did or maybe didn't at all.
Doesn't matter , like what I've always says ,
Your Smiles are all thats worth & matters.

I'm back home:D
& its early morning 6.24am! :D
Went down to ClubYang earlier on.
Ain't anything fun there.
Had martell , but was bored.
Then down to Plaza , to meet up some friends.
Play-d a lil of snooker and I totally sucks!
:X
^^ had early breakfasts , and I'm home
I've got work later on , at like 10.30AM
Thus I'm going to sleep like real soon if I can.
(:
My eye bags and dark rings are killing me.
f :(

Shall be back to update.
as there's nothing much pleasant to update.
But , the only things I know.
Humans make uses of people around them.
wtf.
and friends can turn out to be so f up.
:(
sighs.

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I'm glad and sad , but at the very little least , you took the effort ,
I don't know what you're thinking about , or even feeling.
But , I know things will never be the same again.
as in the past.
but for the present , and perhaps , the future days.
I'm glad , of what we are now.
But don't hold me back , and give me hopes all over again,
if you're not keen.
I don't want to go through another heartbreaking moment

2009-05-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

Love Kills

Today's horoscope's reading(:
Lawerence send me sayings , its suer accurate!
OH well!
Its kinda of hit on bull's eye.
ON certain stuff.
And it's so damn f-ing true about , -drain , siaosiao & WL
:x

There's too many if i were to post it out. Lazy :X
So sorry.
Shall be posting GEMINI's only.
shall post the guy and girl de.
:D

Gemini's Horoscope.

-This is for Ladies[:

A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters.

She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature.

She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably

She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman.

She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess.

She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow.

She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie.

She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer.

Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.

-This is for Guys[:

A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high forehead and very clever. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he start talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call "Hyperactive".

He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type who will write or scribble on paper, he never stay still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.

He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.

If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to?

He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac. He is highly intelligent, spiritual and witty. He is able to give great workable ideas and solution.

He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.

He always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.

Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepare to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.

Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. . When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened, he is always greatest lover and romantic

You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient.

He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle. He solve great puzzle, great people always have him for solution

* Go ahead and do a comparison GEMINIS!
[:
and see whether is it true about yourself. because certain points I can't denied myself that's its freeking accurate!
Its just perhaps coincidence , or maybe they did mention till that very point(:
Take a lookout for yourself.

OH well , if you were to be keen on your own horoscope. I do have(:
Just leave me a tag or something, will post it when I'm free:D

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Yvonne packed her room today,
Clean up and throw stuff away,
and rearrange the positions of my beds(:
& I'm in my nicey smell room now.
But i've the urge to smoke.
:X & also finally caught and times with JAZYLN TOH!Heard her ringtone ringing from my phone.Chatted a while & we shall have lunch or something! NEXT WEEK DARLING!:DDwith babyIssac.

I'm having bad flu :( and bad headache.
On top of packing today, due to so much dust in the master's bedroom.
My sinus is so much more more worst then ever:[
oh man!

Mummy's not home tonight
Sister's sleeping like a log already :X
& I'm still wide awake.
I'm in my room now by the way.
:D
Its only 10.38pm
I feel like bathing again.
weather freaking hot la.
darn.

BB call-d me just now , he sounds so tired.
so poor thing
D:
But my weekend's burned , wouldn't be able to spend time with BB
Mother's day this sunday, and I'm working.
URGH!
f man.
But I guess , will just bring mum out for lunch or something.

Guess what , I feel like drinking
Caramel Frap from starbucks now!
I miss BB.

OH, siaOsiao finished his op already.
:D
msg-d him just now earlier on but he's way too tired and giddy,
guess the anethestic hasn't gone off yet.
Recover soon darling!!

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Obviously, you know I care.& its a fact that I do.I don't know about you.But perhaps you too?Why close one eye & pretend?Ignorance is a bliss.But by ignoring facts no would no longer turn out happy. No one can predict.No one knows what tomorrow would brings.No one knows the reasons to all the whys.And whats the cause of changes behind. I hold onto so dearly,But all I get back were pains and agony.I don't put my heart into and don't take things seriously.Bad comments and disputes starts arising.Just what do humans wants in life? Perfectionist , I believe there is ONEJust this particular person on earth.But of course , there's a little not really perfect too.Naive-ness, there's plenty , I believe the one whose reading this sometimes might be too.childish?Everyone has it , just how the present it.
So random?wtf am i blogging.Please kindly pardon me .I'm merely just BOREDu>

I want you to know , I care. thou many times I give you a thinking like i really don't at all. But i do. Be it whether you do or don't it doesn't matter. As long as the smile on your face , its all that's worth(: LOVEYOUBB

2009-05-06T19:11:00.002+08:00

Wo xiang wang ji ni

I want to leave .in the past , but i still can't
You still comes into my mind often as ever.
& i would still miss you

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bad mood:(

2009-05-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

Chouchou

Had my hair cut(:
Like finally:D
And i straighten it.
Only for temporaily. & I'm considering whether anot to Re-Bond it.
:X
HMMMMM
Any suggestionsss?

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Heading down to pub later.
Got work.
& I"m so so tired.
Play majong with BB , Ahjie & kor last night.
Till dawn.
And i only slept for like 3hrs ?
i think.....

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Things are starting to have a little changes ,
hopefully , i'll be adapt.
But i ain't going to care so much like in the past.

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Sometimes when we touched.
I would still miss you occasionally.

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There's a little something , I don't know how to put in words.

2009-05-02T19:06:00.002+08:00

A song I used to sing all day long

A clown with full of smiles and colours,
Making everyone around their surroundings happily smiling telling them jokes and full of entertaining.
But is the Clown itself really happy?

Went drinking with Lawerence supposely were the two of us.
But i call-d cassandra along(:
& I've did a great deed.
Ha.
Oh well.
Its just affinity:D
Adrain came down to join us to after that.
I was so happy to see him.
(:

Home at 3Am plus plus.
& I miss siaosia0-

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Just merely how many could do what they says?
You lectures others , but can you put it onto yourself instead?
Or were you just putting on a mask to draw attention.
to prove that you were better then others and very different.

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Mood-swings.
:(
I feel like crying.

2009-04-30T15:13:00.004+08:00

That moment.

I'm having such foul mood.
I don't know whats going on and what's wrong.
Just feel so moody!
-sighs.

I made a video.
There's still much to correct , and make into a better one.
I can't upload it here.
cause the format is different.
-.-
f.

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I'm in a fcuking bad mood now.
i don't know why.
But i don't like this feeling.
:C
Shall go for my smoking break.
fcuk man

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Moody, I don't know why.

Feels weird, uncomfortable & on the verge of cries :C

2009-04-29T21:23:00.002+08:00

The best part has become history of yesterday

I just woke up.
went back to sleep again(:
haa.
I'm such a lazzy piggy.
But due to lack of sleep , this is the only time where I can recuperate my health on my off days.
Other then sleeping , what else can I do?

Might be going out later on.
Supposely , i guess?
I'm still thinking of whether anot to go.
so yeah.
I'm still on bed.
& the feeling is such nice feel wor.

Just hang-d up the phone with sia0sia0
He sounds so moody:(
I hope he's feeling better now.
sigh.
& i'm affected.
:(
f.
Cheer up alrights sia0sia0.

I don't even know why am I blogging.
ohdamn.
BYE ppl.

I miss my hanging out times.
urgh.

2009-04-27T14:06:00.002+08:00

You do , I don't think so
爱情走过以后

A long talk, after since so many days.
and that it always seems to be just yesterday.
I don't want it to pass, Just so so soon
let it stay a little longer while?
But I know, loving someone is to let them go, and if you do matter in a tiny place of their heart and they'd return-d someday they might stay perhaps for a day.
For nothing stays forever. Be content you had once(:

Just had lunch with BB.
Lights off last night only at like 6AM PLUS.
Yvonne's a good girl:D
I wok e up at 12.30pm.
Tummy so full now.
Had MeeGoreng(:
& I feel like puking now. :X
A little hangover due to a little drinking yesterday.
But not as bad, but was really having headache while on cab..

Work on Tues , Fri and sun.
Think I shld continue working there ?
hmmms.
urgh.
Will be home tonight(:
and have plenty of rest.

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I miss you.
也是你说不爱我.
Don't make me confused and get myself in dilemia will you?

2009-04-26T15:09:00.002+08:00

Un-expected ~~Happy-ness~~

Work last night.
Drank pretty much due to mixing , had tummyache in the morning:(
But I was happy working yesterday(:
-with smiles.
:DDD
Siaosiao, appeared suddenly when he said he buey ge yen to come down.
haha.
Happy:DDDDDDD
HOHO.
Was glad to see him. But didn't really talk much.
Home at 3AM.
Lights off around 4Am++++

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OH, and yesterday, There was this arguement on bus.
BusDriver V.S Passenger.
Was super loud.
but i find them very stupid.
The bus driver were indeed f-**** rude.
Terrible.
-shake heads.

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Work tonight again.
But will be going back to accompany BB I guess.
Have gotta save.
Too many stupid , and uncall-d stuff. I've got myself into:(
f!

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Today's Gemini's Horoscope.

-Someone has been playing a totally flirtatious game with you for a while now,
but don't worry if it feels like it comes to a stop today.
This is not the end! They are simply reorganizing their ideas and revising their approach.
They have a big surprise in store for you, so stay tuned.
The tables are about to be turned and you're going to find yourself in a situation you've never been in before.
It may be uncomfortable at first, but just give it time -- this is going to be an exciting experience.

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How true , we shall see.

2009-04-24T13:32:00.002+08:00

define

At this moment.
Completely blank.
Nothing much going through around my brain,
as i guess due to plenty of un-need thinkings my brain cells had died a dozen or perhaps a million.
Pondering for un-called things
Thinking of unexpected things.

I'm miss my brothers.
I miss hanging out late at nights.
I miss my friends.
Where we used to hang around and talk it out throughout ,
with plenty of stupid things and stuff.
I Miss my girls.
Where we always catch things ups and have meals.
I MISS YOUR LA.
MEET UP SOON ! Sweethearts...

-but there just too much drastic change.
:(

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L O V E

is to give somemore , what they would feel fortunate with.
give them your utmost best in everything.
Be there whenever they need you to be.
Giving them what others can't give ,
and to compromise , give in , care , and satisfy their needs.
Don't give them feel hurt in ways they used to had ,
giving them attention when its much needed.
and that , unless , we can give them the best ,
if not , den don't be with them.
not to let them feel so small.
but instead , feel loved.
Changed our bad habits to comply to them.
and become a different person to suit into their world.

its much easier to convert into chinese ,
english hard to phrase.
>.<
roughly ; thats was his definition for his the other party.

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Oh , -.-
its so super random.
I'm so lazy to put it in chinese.
I don't even know what the fcuk i'm trying to blog.
I'm merely bored ?
I suppose

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so no life.

2009-04-23T18:58:00.002+08:00

charisma

After all of the talking from yesterdy,
I guess , i knew the reason behind that I've been drawn towards you.
and that live is full of un-expected happenings and stuff.
We shouldn't put in too much.
Doesn't care , doesn't mean we've to hurt others , that's what you say.
But perhaps , it would do us good in many ways.

Therefore ;
YVONNE WOULNDT BE WHAT SHE IS ANY LONGER MORE.
BUT NOT TO WORRY THERE'D JUST BE A SMALL SLIGHT CHANGED.

I'm bored to death
DRINKING TONIGHT ANYONE!

Even if its going to be true , that my feeling towards you are genuine.
I'm just going to ignore it like how you say.
DONT CARE DONT CARE.
It will makes me feel better i suppose .
but , i guess there'll still be tims , i'll miss you badly.

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I'm working on saturday & sunday.
due to some reason.
working with some ass is such a fcuking terrible things.
f !
but there ain't any choice , this is life
sometimes , just can't understand.

BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT

YVONNE AIN'T GOING TO CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE.
Because by no caring so much, might feel more at ease.
There's just too much to compromise , too much to comply , too much for me to let others feel satisfied,
and it never seems to be enough of what I've done.
Perhaps , he's right.
Thus , I need to learn to reach his standard.
:D
Will try.

2009-04-23T01:05:00.002+08:00

你说你比较习惯一个人

YOU MADE MY DAY -LYRAD-

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It the little effort.
Thou its just a little small conversation after so long ever since.
But still , you drew the smile on my face.
Thanks .

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I'm still wide awake!
:D
ITS 01.12AM now .
& I'm wide awake still.
I have the whole day to sleep in tomorrow:D
how nice.

& I'm still on the phone with ------
but am going to hang up soon , to turn in for the night.
As his stupid cordless phone no batt also.
>.<
cock.

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I know , I should be content with what I have & I've always been taking things for granted.

2009-04-22T17:07:00.002+08:00

Without even Knowing

No one else but you.......

Ex-MOS Or St.James tonight.
Or probably... HOME.
Instead of running out, stay home and reflect.
(:
save money in a way:D
haa.

I forgotten to bring my keys out.
DARN!
f .
which means , i have to make a trip home if i were to go out again.
NABEI!

Bayb's not coming out this week.
Which means lonely weekend for me.
But luckily I've got work so I wouldn't be so bored.
Thinking of stuff I should not be doing.

Met up Adrain , ahwee & lawerence last monday.
They came over to my workplace to drink:D
haa.
been a while since i last saw them too.
Was happy:D

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The distance in between is getting further as each day passes.
I'm still so un-used.
Because 幸福来得太快
and i'm too used to it , that i can't adapt that its gone so fast
:(
ylrad uoy ssim I
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There ain't any thing I have in mind or rather I would want other than you alone.

2009-04-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes When We Touched

I'd rather be the fool ,
I'd later I be hurt at the end of time.
Eventually , someday , words would be define ,
Time will let me know............

I just want you to be happy.
that's all.

&
I miss you alot.

2009-04-20T11:01:00.002+08:00

Not that

My heart's not that generous ,
Its not big enough , to allow me to let you go to him/her.
Cause baby, You do matters ,
& I can't bear to let you go.
I"ve never meant to hurt nobody ,
Perhaps , to you , I'm just being a little too possesive.
I'm so afraid , when I would to turn my back,
Or close my eyes for a moment.
You wouldn't be there at where you were,
I don't wanna lose sight of you.

Its just like a dream that I'm having,
Can't believe, I've got this chance in life to be with you.
It's like living in a fantasy,
A fairytale story.
You took your leave ,
Without noticing me.
I just believe it came true,
Every night , I would cry myself to sleep.
The pain is just too hard to painful for me to endure,
& I would ask myself back again , is this true?

We had plenty of dreams,
Plenty of things that we used to dream together.
But it was way too late ,
Now I've to go through alone , and can't acomplished it with you.
Lovers do goes astray,
But that has never let my heart to change.
To you my dear,
It has always be the same.

The sun rise is never the same ,
It seems to have a little changed.
Never knowing where we'll be heading,
As tomorrow's a brand new day.
Would you be leaving or be staying ,
I would always have this fear.
I just want things to remain,
Like pretty yesterday.

Now , I just wanna close my eyes and say,
For my sake , for this love , would you stay for a little while more.
Let me remember , your remsemblence,
Let me reminisce , our once sweet love.
The sweet kisses ,
Still lingers.
I'd remember this beautiful chapter of life story you've written,
& I'd give my blessing for you to find a better one who can give you smiles.
All I want , is for you to be happy in everything you do ,
That's all I'm asking for.

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最后只有,流着泪看你走
有谁能舍得
看你走

愿意就这样放手
可对于软弱的我
我只好接受

既然无法挽留
回忆就足够
是否你离开我会过得更快乐

我相信,在你离开之后
我就会辛酸难受
懂得拥有
却未必能让你快乐

只剩遗憾拉住我不放手.

2009-04-18T17:21:00.001+08:00

Just Yesterday

I made a grave mistake.
You can't be bothered yet I've pour-d in just too much.
Why is it always like this?

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Work later on.
* I'm so tired.
Moodless.
I wanna see you . :(

2009-04-17T17:00:00.003+08:00

I'd rather

A beautiful story, a chapter that had it memories
We've written it on a piece of white sheet of papers
Filled with ink and colors
Filled with full of different words
With different kinda of pictures and scenerys which is something you won't be able to get it elsewhere
The only unique one that behold just the both of you
Her & Him

Happy-ness were always for a short period of time
There's never enough of reasurrance
There's wasn't any comfirmation
There's ain't any vows being taken
There's no promises that hasn't been broken
There were agreements and disagrements
There were disputes
There were tears
There were laughter you can hear it lingers
There were fun

Good things doesn't last for long
Its only for a period of time
We can't asked for more
But to only be content with what we have
One day, they will just walked out on you
And all that's left is just their shadow left behind to reminisce
Forever means its never
Content is what we should bear in mind
Be glad with what you have around your surroundings and don't ask for more

Humans changed
Humans err
To make mistakes are humans greatest failure
To pick up from where you fall is hard
But to run away from fact is dumb
Face the music find a solution solved it , things could be a little better ahead
Friends & Loved ones
Cherished and say all that you need to
You don't know when they will leave at the very next moment when you turned your head around
And when you've decided to spill out your mind
They will not be there to listen to your thoughts
Treasure they existance don't regret when only they take their leave

Its super random.
~

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Someone tells me what is going through my mind
What should i do about it
Why do I always face such situation of being nowhere
Perhaps , I'm that dumb.
urgh.
sighs
:(

2009-04-17T12:46:00.004+08:00

Time reveals the truth

Work for the recent days & I'm so tired.

Due to lack of sleep:(

But throughout this last four days & so , I'm filled with smiles:D

for some reasons .

:D

Siaosiao came down last night(; and wait-d for me to knock off.

den drop me over at aunt's place:D

so sweet of him.

& saw weilun over at RK prata shop too.

But there wasn't much stuff going through my mind at that moment of time.

(:

so am kind of relieved:D

Weekends going to be burn-d!

:(

because there's work.

so sad.

ha. Mum's jio-ing me down to Ex-MOS

for ladies night.

:D

So cool.

But doubt I'll be going with her.

So tired from all the working and lacking of proper sleeps.

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At this point of time , I've sort out many stuff.

There's just too many things for me to care , too many thing to think.

So instead of putting myself in so much stress.

Why don't I just don't go and bother about them.

I'll no longer reaproach myself for the changes in my loved ones.Because its really tired.and there's no point.I'm going to be selfish , a little more pampering myself then i do so in the past. --Instead of cooping myself in the past , making things so miserable for myself.why don't i just leave everything behind , and lead a happy life :D ... My heart didn't hurt when i see you again.-----

Siaosiao says; We must look forward in life and look far don't stay in the past.

-There's no point. because things are still what they are.

2009-04-10T17:57:00.001+08:00

If time could turn back

There's plenty of stuff I wouldn't go and do.

Shall blog when i'm free.
work tml:(

2009-04-05T19:07:00.002+08:00

th love

Met up Kuanying , esmond , and peixin together with Bibi.
:D
went to catch a movie:D
hahaha.
watch-d JackyChan's new movie.
Is so f-ing gross.
>.<
but nice la.
just that storyline not very nice.
Because jackychan died in the end:(
-.-

HOme after that.
Went back yishun to take my clothes

Eugene going army alr on tues:((
Going to miss him so much.
cause gathering will be even hardier now!
-humpfs.

BROTHERS , lunch tml yah!!!!! (:
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I don't need you back, in fact.
I only want to get facts right.

2009-04-02T18:25:00.002+08:00

Best gift God has given me
Having splitting headace now :(

I'd still miss you occasionally
but whatever it is,
there were time that consist of your memory
It might not be the best , but least there was once

Someone asked me ,

-why do humans have to realise the importance of the other party only when they take their leave. * I paused for a moment, shed-d a tear.

2009-04-01T23:29:00.002+08:00

April Fool's Prank
)((*&&^*&(**(^*(
~~Stupid idoit. fcuking shit.~~

2009-03-30T15:00:00.005+08:00

Inmune , so Tired

Give you a chance to live your life all over again, how would you choose to live?

I want a different ending.
I don't want a beginning. But if it has to have I want
All startings have to end with smiling.& i want everyone around me living life happy

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When things seeems to be so wrong, & everything is doing down , just not your way .
-whose the first person that comes into your thought

What went throught your mind when you felt there's no point in living
-deathe , or just move on in life with a postive mind.

Have you ever betrayed any of your closest friend or kin over somethings for your own benefits?
- If you did, you should just fcuking die. cause you've no point in living!

You known anyone whom have did bad stuff upon others , what was your reactions?
- Hold onto the grudge because there's no courage in confronting that person?

When you're at the lowest point of time in life.
-whose the one you wished were there for you?

Many times you've asked yourself , what the reason behind all your smiles.
-So what was it really in fact?

How many times , you thought that girl/guy were the one you loved?
-But afterall , its just infatuation.

How many heartbreaks you went through?
-But there were some that you just can't let go because you can't bear to?

Whose the one that you think right now?
-The person who stood by you or the one who left with you with heartaches?

What did you do , when you've got blame for nothing and am being mistaken?
-Ignore because you didn't go against your conscious and just thing be what they are

While reading this. Whose the person you're thinking of right now
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I miss you.
once in a while thinking
I love you.
a hoaxing phrases

th sweetest kiss ; still lingers
th memories ; would still reminisce
those days were the happiest times
But i've always took my happy-ness for granted.

Humans are the worst beings on earth that GOD has created.
because they've feelings.
And feelings mislead.
They only understand , how important a person existanceonly when that person starts to leave , or realised they important when they have left

They'll never be content with what they have.Because its never enough thats what they think
Why can't they be a little bit more not selfish
try putting others first?Don't asked for anything in return , if you decided to treat anyone nice.No point.
Why made somethings so simple into such complicated scene.
But being the nicey nice person.don't always seems to turn-d out in good endings.:Dthat's life isn't it ?

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Why push-d away the one who loved you wholeheartly
Neglected their feelings when they need you to be there for them
Why can't fate be a little more generous
Why can't things just fits nicely and there's peace for everybody

Why say things when you don't mean it
Hurting the other party without knowing
Why ain't trust able to withstand all the trials that came in between
because we ain't meant to be.

So many un-fairness , we always complain.
In fact , we're already very lucky.
Look things at a different perspectives.
Different points and views.
Things might just take a change.

None stay in forever , happ-ness they are , most of the time for short term.
So humans should be in fact , be content and glad.
And cherished those around them.

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Super random I know. Sorry, I don't know what I'm blogging , I'm just bored

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Family/Love/Friendship consist of

-Trust
-Care
-Love
-Trueful-ness
-Giving and taking
-Being there when they're down
-Share the bond that's a little different from others

But the important most of all.
Not to betray the friendship they do or does hold dearly in their heart.
If you did.
Do say sorry & please admit your wrongdoings before its way too late

& if you were to have someone whom you loved.
or someone you would want to tell them you loved them.
do let them know too before , they leaves ?
and don't end up in tears or regrets.
Cause there's no points.

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therefore , I would make my claim here ;

Plenty of thanks to those who stood by me when I needed someone by my side.
My family and friends
No words can ever make it up for the great things that you guys have done for me.
Big thank you , to those who gave me advices and stood through my lowest time.
The days where we hanged out in groups. Thanks brothers (:
The day where we had out gossips and our laughters and shoppings and also camwhoring. Thanks sisters (:
The one that never leaves me and tolerated my nonsense thou I'm really really so bad-tempered. Thank JJG(:

Words will never be able to fill up this pages of thank you.
Because , there's so much to say to the individuals of being there for me.
There's not always happiness , there's also disagreements , but we always have it sorted out.
There might be some changes in us , and for some , its just too hard to adapt.
Thus , I wished them 'Good Luck'

Thanks for giving my life a memorie where I'll remember till the very day I've my last breathe on earth.
Because everything single little things , there's smiles , tears , laughters , arugments and much more.
& I'll always remember the things we do , even for the really un-important one.
Our outings and gatherings.
:D
those who have known me.
Thanks for the times , we had , even if its once.
:DBrothers & girls. You were always there.Thou we've , do have things not all in common.But we had our happy times.(:Your smiles are the reason of my happy-ness.-- Oh ya , not forgetting , Thanks god , for giving me my family.Thou its kinda of irritating at times when arguements starts to sparklebut ,I'm glad that I've them(:Its not the best , but I'm content.because i know in their heart of theirs.
I do stand i little space :D .

THANK YOU(:

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& lastly , JJG , thanks for always being the one who stood by me no matter under what circumstances
Even thou , i was really spoilt , and really so so bad.
My nonsense you tolerated all and has never stopped pouring your uncondition love upon me
We've too many ups and downs. Just too too many.
But nothing have ever stopped us from going forward.
Your care , love , and encouragement.
Are my greatest gift that god has gave me.
He gave me you.
Sorry for the times , I made you upset , I made you cry.
the heartaches that were un-neccessary .
But I appreciates and cherished all that you've given me.
Thank you will never be able to make it up to you. Because you've given me more then anyone could have gave me.
But still , thanks baby.
There's still so much more , of thanks.
loveyou.

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We don't know what tomorrow brings. Or what will happened at the very next moment.
But I know.
If i were to leave , Please don't weep.
Because , I'll be doing fine.--For things happens for a Reason, There's a reasons for all smiles and tears.There's time for smileA time for tearA time for angerA time for funMost of all.Enjoy what you're doing , and live life without regrets:D

2009-03-26T11:17:00.002+08:00

Time will let you get used to the pain subsequently

Big fat liars:(

Whose the one telling the truth.
whatever they're saying.
I've nothing against my own conscious
so be fine with it.
Don't drag me into the conversations.

2009-03-21T22:53:00.001+08:00

I might not have done enough
Sorry can't make it up.
I've given my best and I've done all that I've could.

2009-03-18T10:33:00.003+08:00

Back to the past to look through

Monday

Met up Eugene , Jiajun & B after my work over at Khatib Mrt(:
Then down to 848 for food then back to my place.
:D
chit chatted and was doing some stuff till around 5am.
:X
couldn't take it went to room ask B to accompany them:XX

Tuesday

Happy 17th Birthday COUSIN:D
Went to have Japenese food for dinner with Ahyi , Mummy , Cousin and B
:D
It was pretty nice:D
haaa.
But pathetically , I could eat too many stuff.
Due to the operation wound still yet to recover.
>.<Oh, cousin me & b went to caught over a movie(:watched the 'Coming SOON'haa.-applause-d:Dbecause , yvonne wasn't scared for the first time(:haa.I kept telling cousin the storyline and BLOL!

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Right now ! I'm at work.
Alan's back from overseas already.

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I had a dream last night.
And you were in the picture.
why do I have to see your images everytime when I've already manage to forget how your backview looks like.
darn.

2009-03-15T15:53:00.002+08:00

Friday

Met up eugene and weiteng for lunch.
Then went over to Adrain's shop to slack.
Back to Jervon's place after that.
Head-d down with his parents for his POP
B's got award -Best Company-
(:
haaa
Down to Vista after that to slack with the usual guys:D

Saturday

Went down to causewaypoint for movie.
Watched the Watchman
Don't catch what the story line was talking about.
Watch-d with eugene and his friend (:
den down to mac to slack:D
home sweet home after that

Today

Going to bathe den down to Vista point(:
b's bathing now.
am going to bathe alr.
ITS STILL RAINING-.-
HATE IT.

toodles!
i MISS MY GIRLS):
meet up soon nahs!